~Its Herworld~

I HOPE I STAY:)

2009-10-31T05:01:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOD ITS BEEN way too long since i last updated my blog! i know i know i know. Frankly, i could not be bothered as there was too many things back those days to update and i thought i will end up be a computer freak again once i start updating. Anyway, school is being a bitch and taking up most of my time. HAHA.

Firstly, Thousands of apologies to all whom have been waiting to read and know whats my latest update or if im still alive or not. The fact is I STILL AM ALIVE!:) HAHA.

Latest update, I have just finished my production " This is Where we came in" and i would like to thank all those who came to support our show. It was definitelt a great moment for all of us and we are happy that u guys all enjoyed it:) Special thanks to lovely syirah,Aidil, Syaiful n Abang Afi who came down to watch my show:) Moving on, My next production is SHAKESPEAR!:) WOOOHOOO!!!! and we will be doing MACBETH and i was thinking maybe i would like to try somehthing new so i may want to try out for one of the wicked witch. But, i do not no yet. We are still not casted yet and that would done only next year january:) Anyway, im currently having my end of semester Exam and so far so good:) We just had our singing exam, voice and speech and acting exam:) Next week will be all the dance class exam and that would be Chinese Classical dance exam, Pollish dance exam, Modern dance exam,Hip hop dance exam, Waltz dance exam and finally, Russian dance exam! WOW so many i know and tell me about it iv been busy recalling the dancesteps. Hope to really do well for my upcoming exam and i aim to get GPA above 3:)

Lets skip about school- BORING. Now about me and RAHMAN:)

We have been fighting alot for the past few months but nevertheless, our hearts grew stronger for each other..im really glad that iv understood him even more and indeed iv love him deeper:) i was really afraid that fighting may cause us to be distant and worst, dislike each other but nothing like that happened and i hope it will never be:) Guess what? This NOVEMBER 17 is our TWO YEARS together!:) man im really so happy and i hope and pray that we will stay strong and even stronger in whatever circumstances. He have been the best man in my life and he will always be:)

Anyway, IV LOST WEIGHT!!!!! HAHA:) maybe some of you may not realise but yeah i did. lost 3kg and yae im so happy! Btw, i went to California Fitness ZUMBA DANCE NIGHT AND IT WAS FCUKING FCUKING FCUKING AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!:) man syirah i can not imagine how high u will be if u were there on that night with me:) Zumba dance is a dance mixture of Samba, Ramba,Salsa, Reggae and u know all the SHAKE UR BOOTY BOOBIES n go crazy kind of dance!:) I was all out and oh wow i sweat like hell n my clothes was soaking wet i swear! Oh den i went to locker room to change and shower haha and for the first time i saw MANY TOPLESS WOMEN walking all around the locker room. It was a very WEIRD moment for me as iv never seen MANY NAKED WOMEN AT ONE TIME!:) hahahaha sounds funny but hell yeah that was what i saw. I saw diff colours, diff size, diff mass diff shapes...OK STOP IMAGINING ALL OF YOU! haha.

ok till here and may u guess hear from me again:) HAHAHA

nadiah:)

shocked!

2009-07-28T23:44:00.001-07:00

Yesterday i woke up and i got the attack again. This unbearable sharp pain that i had to endure in my stomach. It was so pain i cld hardly breathe:( However, i know i had to go school cuz its very very very strict now based on attendance wise and i wld not want to waste the 15 percent that we are allowed to be absent. I felt like i should be using that for the later part maybe when i need it. SO yesterday, my mum had to massage me n she put some medcine on my stomache. I came for dance class but i just sat one corner and watch them dance. I was so tempted to just stand up n dance but i just cant do it as im afraid that i may get attacked again:( i was a lot better in the late afternoon and i was stubborn so i dance for the later class.

Anyway, it was such a shocking news to know that one of my junior from theatre department year 1 got H1N1 so teh department have actually decided to stop school and reopens untill next Monday,2 august. Yes its so fun to know but actually its not so fun knowing that there will definitely be make up classes when the rest are having their school holidays:( btw, so now im currently having another week break which is fun but again im sick with this pain so i cant really enjoy much though.

Yesterday, i went t meet baby and we headed to macdonald to eat seaweed french fries!:) that food is ORGASMIC I SWEAR:) hahahhaa.i love it alot though im not suppose to eeat that much of that, i still do:( haha.

Ok till here and till u hear form me again!:)

PS: I MISS NUR SYIRAH and NUR AIN:) mwah!

Loves-

Nadiah-

School school and school:)

2009-07-24T23:07:00.000-07:00

School have been Just great but i must really say its really really tiring....im ending at 7pm everyday and i guess its the time whereby we must all really work our ass off.

Theres a lot of many new dance class. Im learning Pollish dance now and it aint easy at all really. Richard's class is totally fun! modern n sum kind of a hip hop dance sumthing like that. Other den that for acting class we are working on repertoire scenes right now and my show will be on the 29 August which is drawing nearer and i have yet to memorise my lines. Damn it. So many things are going on right now...got sum modelling offer but i declined the offer due to school and other things..

Anyway, today i will heading to Arab street with Bf and his friends for sum fun n fun n fun!:) its been a long i last met them n i hope today will be a great day!

Dearest Twinny S, Im very sorry for you for what had happened. However, i want you to get well soon so i can meet up with you. I felt like crying when i read ur blog. I felt like iv failed to be there for you when u needed me. Im sorry..i want to make it up to you and meet you..I love you darling truly do. Please stay strong and whatever it is, u know u ALWAYS have ME nadiah binte mohammad ur bestfriend:)MWAH!:)

Damn i have to learn 4 my fanetiks test cuming up this wednesday...and oh ya got to learn how to speak in american accent! GRHHHHh....and also must buy LEOTARD( how the fuck u spell it) haha for pollish dance class.

Ok i gtg now...n till u hear from me agian:)

LOves

Nadiah-

Long long Entry...:)

2009-07-19T00:46:00.000-07:00

Theres really so many things that i will be blogging about in this entry of mine today:) so please just tahan with me if it gets a little too long winded eh?:)

First of all, i would like to congratulate to all KOLEJ 56 Cast because we have made a great show and it was a success!:) i am truly deeply happy that we managed to pull this through despite facing alot of problems like handling "difficult people" as well as " difficult situation"

Some bitch around, others listen...some backstab and others follow..haiz..this is life i supposed eh?

Anyway, I would like to thank everyone whom have put all their hearts and effort in this Kolej 56 Musical. I have indeed learnt alot from each and evryone of you...some i learnt how bitchy or crazy or annoying or self proclaimed good you can be- this definitely mean only certain people:) but anyway, no doubt i will miss the irritatingNess that person can be knowing i wun see you again. HAHA. ok moving on, I would also like to thank abang hamzah and abang Afi for all the great work from them, the patience n faith they have in us. I swear, if it werent for them who had not given up on us, we wldnt be where we are now.

I am definitely going to miss some of them especially dearest Syirah, Syaiful, Ain, Aidil, Aida, Huda, uyun, abang afi and abang hamzah ofcuz.:) These are the people that actually made me want to come and look forward for training. If it werent especially for Syirah and Ain's sake, sometimes i feel that im really lazy to go especially when not many people there are putting thier 100 percent in the production.. Im going to write some thank you msg to Some people and let me start of with....

1) Nur Syirah...

" I watched you grow and i watched you fall, Iv seen your worst and iv seen your best..knowing you during our secondary school days was totally awesome..and when i get to know that i will be meeting you again for this KOLEJ 56 Production, god knows how happy and totally grateful i am to be able to see you again!:) YOu have always been the best and u know u are always MY BEST GIRLFRIEND, You always listen to me when i needed someone to be there for me.. u never fail to show concern n love towards me. I truly treated you like my sister, my twin my best buddy ever:) We laughed, we cry, we bitch,we have the same opinion and u agree to me n i agree to you..how can i ever find a person that almost have 80 percent the ssame name, same mum's name, same feelings and all with me? u are indeed truly my one in a million friend and i will definitely cherish you till the end of time dearest...I thank you for the times ur parents send me home and for the moments u made me laugh:) i will never forget the great times we had together and we will definitely be meeting again even after evrything has ended for kolej 56..this i PROMISE you love:) I always Love you...oh u know that darn well:) mwah!"

2) Nur Ain....

" when i first met you, i was saying this to myself...damn it she is super cute and i think if im a guy, i may have a crush on you..haha please ain, im not lesbian:) And so i strated knowing you...and i felt that ur not much of a difference of what i thought u were. U had a bf back then...haizad and u were so close n very manje to him and so i suspected, hell yeah she is manje..:) the first time when i saw u cry was during the dance class and i went to the toilet to comfort you...I did not know much what to say to you as im afraid u may not like it if i were to touch you..ur cry is even cute.:) did i tell u that? haha. Moving on and days passes by ur in my bitchy wawa team and im really very happy to be acting together with the most gorgeous girls ( u and Syirah) in the Kolej 56:) i was very very happy infact. You are a nice friend but sometimes i cant deny the fact that u can be annoying bitch with ur whiny little small voice:) BUT I ALWAYS LOVE YOU..iv always do since we started being close:) Ain, i know that ur in ur hardest and most difficult situation now..let me just tell you this. BE STRONG AND MOVE ON. Its not the end of the world and its not WORTH UR TEARS FOR HIM If he doesnt even care for you anymore ain...Open ur eyes and see the beautiful world. Its not only about him isnt it? There are many things in store for a young potential lady like you ain darling..So please, after reading this..i hope u realise that u worth MUCH MORE and dont bring urslef so down like that. Ur just SEVENTEEN for godsake:) much more things and people have yet to come in your way...:) u will never know. For now, i want you sister to work hard n do well in school. I LOVE U DEAREST:)"

3) AIDIL...

" haha aidil....aidil....when i first met you in the audition room, i was kinda irritated by you...i thought were like those MATREPS i can easily spot on down the street. But eversince i started knwoing you during this musical, U proved me so wrong. U have been one og my good friend in this musical and i never regretted knwoing you:) Working with you in the production was so much fun. We both laughed a lot together, u made me laugh and i always make u laugh too..:) When i got to know u will be Rosman and im Nitty Bonanza, i was like.."OHOH im acting with him now." i thought its gona be hard at first cuz im afraid i cannot connect myself to you but apparently u helped me out a lot aidil. In a way or rather i find myself not in a difficult situation to act together with you anymore:) So i really would like to thank you Aidil for evrything and it was so much fun working with you:) oh ya and i will never forget the "BELAKANG BELAKANG PELAJAR action me you and syirah always did to disturb someone. ( u know who)..haha:) so now that we will be taking a step further in TV, i wish u all thebest Aidil and make our friendship grow n always support each other ok!:)

PS: thank you for always asking me if Im ok or not whenever im sick:)"

4) Syaiful....

" I never knew we can be close in just a short time. You are one nice guy and also i must say Syirah is very fortunate and lucky to have a guy like you:) you both suits perfectly! Syaiful, Im always entertained by ur silly jokes and let me tell u ur laughter is indeed very contagious haha:) It was great knwoing u as a friend and im sorry if IV TAKEN SYIRAH AWAY FROM YOU HAHAHAHAHA!!!! no lah joking:) u are a talented guy and im proud n happy to be able to work together with you in this Musical...the laughters and secrets ME you n syirah had shared together will always be remembered. N its nice n great to know that ur a big fan of CHEESE n CHESSE burger like i do. HAHA. Thanks for evrything syaiful and oh ya did i tell u that ur hella one sensitive GUY IV EVER MET? hahha oh yes indeed u are man:) but thats NOt a bad thing though just that, dun cry too much that it will banjir my house ok?:) joking. So yeah...wishing u all the best and will see you again for KOolej 56 kembali lagi tv version!:)"

5) Abang Afi....

" you were just like a brother to me...u gave me hope, u gave me advice and u never fail to always me me happy. Ur a very sincere guy at heart and definitely one talented man too...i love ur voice and i think that u should start taking a step further about it abang afi:) Working with you in this Kolej 56 was fantastic! Abang fi, thank you so much for everything...for the care n concern u showed me...for the times when u sms me n told me to banyak baca doa when im really3 sick...for the times when i had problems n u were there to listen and gave me advice. Like when i first joined Kolej56....i had sum fights and u were there to support me abang i thank you very much...i had great moments with u and i shall always remember that...:)"

6) Abang HAmzah

" i know how much u hated me when u first saw me...u said i was very action and stuck up and that u felt that if i never get any role is also not ur problem...but eventually, ur opinion towards me changed and abang im glad that u had given me this chance to prove myself to you and evrryone else my capabilities being and actor. U gave me alot of advice and i treated u like a big brother too. U have never failed to always make me feel like u believed in me. U always listen to me when i faced problems here in kolej 56. U gave me strength and u have faith in me abang and i really must say that u have taught me a lot of things abang. I am trained in English theatre and when i came to Kolej 56 i learnt quite a lot of new things and abang, i must say that i never regretted coming and my experience with you was like a rollercoster...there were moments n times when i felt like quitting cuz i tot this is not going anywhere..but there u are msging me n telling me to have faith and that this will definitely work out! and abang, im very happy for you that this musical turned out to be a blast with many more offers to come...Im always looking forward to work with you abang:) I thank you very much once again n till we meet again ok!:)"

Ok its the end of the Thank you notes to sum of you which i feel that its more of need for me to write. To the names that i did not mention, that does not mean otherwise, i THANK YOU ALL VERY MUCH FOR EVERYTHING!:).

Adding on, Thanks to evryone who came to watch the show and my special thanks to HAFIZ, AJIB, NAD, SYAID,SHAM, ADLINA n BF n AZLIN n Fren, AIN, FAHmy who came to watch my show...The guys i mentioned above have always been with me since i was 14. knowing u guys was a great experience and i thank u all for ALWAYS SUPPORTING ME in my ARTS industry:) I LOVE U ALL:)

Two days ago was my ONE YEAR AND EIGHT MONTHS with my BELOVED ABDUL RAHMAN and i call him baby gonjeng which i dunt knwo why...i just find that name rather cute but yet disgusting but i loike it!..Loving him is the greatest gift god had ever given to me! and baby....i truly deeply love you so much...and i will never want to lose you sweetheart!:)

School resumes this TUESDAY and i must say that i cant wait for school but at the same time im also NOT READY FOR school looking at the heavy timetable that were given to us!:( oh ya i just want to share sum good news with all of you...im awarded the TAN CHE BENG SCHOLARSHIP AWARD by NAFA:) and im so glad n grateful:)

I was very sick for the past one week..cld not walk, cld not stand nor cld i even shower on my own. and my saviour was my MUM N SISTER TINIE:) without them, i dun think i can heal even till today...i have this sharp pain under my chest near the diaphragm area and its really2 very pain. Its been hell for me and i was bedridden for two days...my mum had to help me with everything...i truly thank her so much. At a moment, i thought i was going to die and was always very afraid that i may not be able to wake up the next morning but i thank you god for healing me and now im very happy that im a lot better!:)

Oh ya there are also other gd news: KOLEJ 56 will be on SURIA on 1ST NOVEMBER 2009 for hari raya HAJI TV FILM SHOW!:) we got an offer after MR SUHAIMI JAIS watched our show and said that he loved it a lot:) Looking forward to this n insyallah many more will come in for us:) it will be KOLEJ 56 KEMBALI LAGI e MUSICAL!:)

Yesterday, syirah ain, me n epul went to pastamania to eat...we were having so much fun until AIn Broke down to tears when the song " how do i live without you" was playing in the restaurant. what i did was just to comfort her cuz i know if i talk further, she will cry even more...After that we were talking about some sensitive issue about parents and how we feel if we lost them...and i told them how i felt when i lost my father...Syirah's eyes was already filled with tears. I know at that very moment she felt how i did. i did not want to cry untill i told them about my mum....how caring she was when she took care of me when i was so sick. That part, i cant endure anymore. I just had to cry. The guilt i have in me is too much to handle..i had to let it go...and i thank you guys for listening to me yesterday...I felt a lot better that u all felt the same way too:)

Ok i better get going now n do my homework...till here toodles:)

LOVES,
NADIAH:)

too long...

2009-07-06T22:30:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!:)

YES i know, again i went missing....but i do have a VALID REASON WHY OK:) anyway, i have been so so so busy with the Kolej 56 the Musical:)

We have gone through so much and FINALLy this SATURDAY will be the day that we will finally show how hard we have worked for this Musical!:) Many ups and downs had happened and i do hope that nothing BAD will happen on the final day itself.....i do hope that nobody will command anyone like their " DOG" anymore. grrrrr.

Anyway, this wednesday we will start bumping in the DBS auditorium :) WEEE CANT WAIT! hehe.

ok guys just to let you know incase you dunt know....take the MRT alight at TANJONG PAGAR MRT...its sumwhere near the CPF building:)

I cant wait for the show, and i truly hope that it will be a great blast bomb day and hopefully there will be not much hiccups cuz that will be really2 sucky though. haha

ok moving on,....i never knew that SYIRAH's mummy's name is actually also HAMIDAH:) haha...i dunt know i really find it very very coincidental because both our names are yaya and our mum also same name. I find it rather cute though haha:) Anyway, its been so long since i last ate swensons MUSSEL WITH CHEESE N BUTTER n now im starting to crave for it AGAIN:(

ok i got to go now...nothing much to update though, even if i do..not so interesting as the "DOGGY COMMAND" situation:) hahaha!

PS: I WILL STAY BY YOU TWINNY:) mwah!

LOVES,

Nadiah:)

IHYOU

2009-06-22T22:04:00.001-07:00

UR SUCH A LOSER-

UR not even RIGHT UR SELF, UR SEXUALLY COMPLICATED, U DUN EVEN KNOW WHICH TO BE:) UV GOT TWO ON TOP, ANOTHER ONE BELOW! HAHAHAH HOW COOL!!!!

U and ur CLAN can continue gossiping and let me tell you something, i dont need you and ur CLAN to like me:) i dun even care. haha! and anyway SINCE WHEN I LIKE YOU CONFUSED THING!

NADIAH-

i never knew-

2009-06-20T22:26:00.000-07:00

I never knew that your ego can be reallllllllyyyy way way way up high in the sky...

I never knew that you actually have the cheek to tell ALL your friends this situation when it clearly states that you, little confused thing, is in the wrong.

If i could just pull that SAME mini skirt u wear over n over again down and just kick that thing underneath there, knowing what u HAVE BELOW, i would.

If only you had the COURAGE to come up to me and tell me that ur parents never taught u manners and so u had to be a little thief, that would solve the whole damn thing.

If only i could be as EGOISTIC as you....I would want to. But i guess i cant CUZ im a lady n yours have reached up above any normal lady or man cuz as i have said, u are CONFUSED. so u are a mix of both my dear:) WOW what an AWESOME combination huh!?:)

Anyway, if u still want to continue being like this cuz trust me, im lazy to entertain you. Knowing that your ego can never be the same level as mine so u will not want to settle down...so i assumed u will want to continue being like how you are now for the rest of ur freaking CONFUSED PATHETIC life..

Im tired. n i got better things to do. IF theres no one to entertain you my dear, you can talk to the freaking world whose as confused as you are:)

Till here,

Nadiah.

PS: Dun MESS with me u little thing-

WOW! INDEED IM TRUE!

2009-06-19T06:48:00.000-07:00

WOW WOW WOW WOW!!!!!!!:)

Sad to say that someone actually have helped me to CONFIRM what kind of person you are!!!! :)

SO....u know what girl/guy ( SORRY I DUNT KNOW WHAT TO CALL YOU) him or her cuz im CONFUSED myself! oh god someone please help me! hahahahahahahaha!!!!!

Anyway, i already know you now so u can stop playing your games with me little thing:) STOP TRYING TO CLAIM ITS YOURS when its NOT:) iv got a prove lah girl/guy:)

PS: IF u try to rub me and my friend the wrong way again, TRUST ME, i will not hesitate to go to you and confront u STRAIGHT AWAY. Dun think only your freaking big mouth can do the talking. DONT TRY ME-

Feeling Challenged,

Nadiah:)

Dont mess with me-

2009-06-17T09:29:00.000-07:00

HAH! what a joke. She probably thinks im stupid or should i say she probably thinks she can lie to me or Cheat me whatever shit. She wanted to play a game with me but OPPS U LOST!:) n next time, try harder and please be smarter darling:)

Anyway today is my ONE YEAR N SEVEN MONTHS with DEAREST ABDUL RAHMAN BABYKU SAYANG!:) and we went to watch LAND OF THE LOST!:)

it was reallly3!!!!!! FUN! it was a great show:) i must agree with my bf on that:)

anyway baby i LOVE YOU DEARES DARLING!:) he made me a special gift that i shall keeeeeeeppppppp it for so so soslong n i treasure it a lot!:)he sketched our face and wrote his love notes on it:) how sweet~ haiz i just so deeply in love with you sweetheart:)

I also went for Kolej 56 training and it was SHITTTTY!

Many werent there and some did not come yet never tell and some was very late but yet we werent informed. Seriously guys, i think its time we fcuking pull up our socks and get back to REALITY! in which, we left 3 more weeks to the show and yet we can all still be playing a FOOL! i think its time we be serious:) PLEASE! if we want the show to be a bomb, we got to start NOW!

Thats all for now.:)

PS: STOP playing games with me babe. Cuz if u want to play, im sure to win infact, i always win:)

Loves

Nadiah

Busy busy n busy!!!!:)

2009-06-12T02:16:00.000-07:00

WOW kolej 56 Musical training is Everyday now and guys do

COME DOWN TO NGEE ANN CITY ON 27 JUNE AT 5PM TO CATCH A PREVIEW OF KOLEJ 56 THE MUSICAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:) DO COME DOWN AND SUPPORT US OK!:)

Talking about that, i have tickets with me to the show...anyone of you who wants to come and watch us, please do tag me n let me know. TICKETS ARE OUT!!

11july, Gala nite 8pm - 10 bucks

11july, Matinee 3pm - 8 bucks

Please do come down and support us! i will be one of the main character as well:) Do watch us!:)

Brief: About college students who is greatly involve and loves music and has passion for singing!:) Despite having a principal who does not allow LOVE to happen in the college school, the students still want to FALL IN LOVE!:) haha

ITS REALLLLLLY FUN!:)

Love,

Nadiah

If want to buy the tickets, call me at my handphone or tag me n let me know:)

SICK:(

2009-06-11T01:13:00.000-07:00

Been Sick Very often lately and TODAY IS A BLAST WITH...............

Wisdom tooth growing leading to a fever of 37.9 degree.......

and this stomach cram that never seemed to heal:(

PS: but im still going for college 56 musical training:)

*He claimed i am emotinally unstable due to the blog entry, let me tell you here nicely that IM ABSOLUTELY HAPPY AND FINE dear friend:) and this aint my ego but the truth from the bottom of my heart:)

Loves and happy,

Nadiah

Its out-

2009-06-07T04:12:00.000-07:00

My Exam's result are Out and i must admit that im really not happy with it. Last semester i got 3.26 GPA and now its 2.95GPa. Oh fcuk yes from 5As down to 3As. Maybe iv been playing too much, maybe im little bit more distracted, maybe im not focusing, i really don't know but i must say that second semester was definitely much difficult den first semester.. anyway, i guess its a wake up call for me. Its year two this coming school reopens and no more playing. Many many many repertoire scenes to come and i guess i must be very focus in order to improve.

6th June-

I was the Emcee for ROck The Sub event at Substation. It was a great experience for me because I HAVE NEVER been an emcee for any gig event and omg my ears my head my brain oh nonononn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i could not take the "noisy music" it was crazy! the audience were moshing and pushing and going crazy! there was this boy in black his face really made me laugh. He looked up to the vocalist as if he was looking up to GOD! he was so into it man!:) the event started at 6.30pm but had to report earlier for rehearsals. It ended at about 12.45am...so that's the reason why i wasnt able to come for College 56 training which i really wish i could cuz there was a farewell party for the three heroeS!:) Sorry guys for not being able to be thre but nevertheless, ISKANDAR, UMAR N LUKMAN, i wish u guys all the best! ok and dont be notty noty in the camp later kana AWALL!:) HAHAHA how u spell it i dunt know.

Moving on...after the Rock the Sub event, i went to meet my bf and we watched a late night movie. Night in the Musuem and guess what? my BF SLEPT in the movie! end up, he was on my lap sleeping and enjoying the aircon while i was busy laughing:) haha. After that then we headed to some other place which was so much fun n thrilling:)

Ok anyway, today im having a very bad cram which i dunt really quite know why but iv been suffering from this pain since weeks ago n its not healing. haiz:(

college 56 performance is drawing nearer and im feeling disconnected from it. Maybe cuz iv missied two days of training but now, i cant wait to back and get my ass back on track!:)

Talking about ASS, i saw this lady she has gigantic ass and i was laughing alone to myself in the MRT when she was standing right infront of me! haha:)

Ok better get going now,

till den.

Loves

Nadiah

U will always be my dearest gf:)

2009-06-04T09:45:00.000-07:00

Looking back through the years, I can't believe how long We have been bestest of friends,

Through good times and bad. When I needed someone to cry, With me and laugh together

Give me a shoulder to lean on, And a hug to make me feel better.

You know how true it is, When you know that no matter what Happens or goes on down the road,

That there will always be best friends. So as time passes and days go by, Just remember that when you need me

That no matter what time or place,

I will always be there by your side, my best friend.

Loves

Nadiah

PS: if u think the world is not listening to you, im here to listen...cuz as iv promised, im always here:)

enough said-

2009-06-03T01:40:00.000-07:00

" I shant get involve.

U do what's best n do it right.

U know im always here for you IF u need me..."

All the best,

Nadiah

WHy me?

2009-06-02T09:14:00.000-07:00

" i just dun understand why u are acting this way"

" maybe ur hurt but i did not realise and im sorry"

" im sorry if im involve in this matter"

"im sorry that it had to be ME"

" i thought you trusted me, but from the way u are now and what u said seemed like u don't."

" how can u ever think that way of me? that i would want to do such a thing to just hurt you?"

" what were u even thinking?.of all people Me..why do i have to even get involve in this matter, i dunt really know"

" u KNOW IT URSELF SO WELL that i never wanted this to happen. Infact, i was flabbergasted that this had to happen"

" i just hope for one thing, that u don't hate me cuz u know uv been the best girlfriend iv ever met"

Ps: I know ur not replying my msges on purpose, but babe, i need to talk to you:(

I dont want to lead this on..

I hearts you~

Confused,

Nadiah-

great!

2009-05-31T05:29:00.000-07:00

Ok, i have been seeing these two pretty heads for the past whole week, practising hard for our Scenes as well as doing our recording:) TO dearest Ain. COngratulations for being able to sing so much better for the second time of recording! i knew it u could sing!:) and THANK YOU AIN for acconpanying me to Lot 1 and macdonald while waiting for my bf:) :) and for dearest syirah...thanks once again for sending me back home:) hehe

Anyway girls, i just want to say thanks for always hearing out my worries.. hahah the same WORRY OVER N OVER AGAIN:) n u both know what im talking about eh? hahahaha!

Looking forward for every training so together we can make a great performance!

ps: AIN GO N MEMORISE UR LONG LONG LONG LINES PLEASE:)

LOves n so much love

Nadiah:)

Feeling weird

2009-05-30T09:02:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, i had a tremendously super super super scary bad bad yet nice dream. ok i really dunt knwo how you explain that but yeah thats what i had:(

firstly my dad came into my dream..he helped out my mother who was possesed in my dream. It was really so scary but yet i could not wake up!!! moving on...my dad was the one who got my mum back to normal and my late dad was standing by the fridge. i hugged him real tight and i said this to him "dad that time u already passed away right now u came back?" he just smiled...and then i stupidly went to ask him....hows life there in the after life world? he just said...its " TYPICAL" i really dunt knwo what that means but i was flabbergasted when he said this, if u really want to know how it really feels, later when u die u come with me ok? and then he pushed me aside and went to my mum:( and then it was another long story i lazy to tell but this was the weirdest part in my dream:(

Ok today we had musical training and we had dance. Finally, we managed to almost finish up the formation and all...im kinnda worried because i feel that theres no little time and yet we are also not quite ready for now:( haiay......scary lehz........but nevermind:) CUM ONGUYS! im sure when the day cums! we will GIVE IT A BLAST!:)

ok i gtg now.

PS: IM WAITING FOR YOU LOVES:)

loves

nadiah:)

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2009-05-28T23:30:00.000-07:00

28th May 2009...8 plus at nite...

I sensed that something was not right with you i dunt know. Though its may not be with me that ur mad at but i felt as though it has got sumthing to do with me that ur angry or mad or upset i dunt know. I dunt want to mention your name because i dunt want the whole world to know but i do hope u read this entry of mine and all i want to say is IM TRULY SORRY dearest. It may not be Me that ur mad about But i just got this strong feeling that u were not in gd terms with sumone because of Me. Why? because the moment right after i had my food, n when i went in, u dun look happy:( I never meant to hurt u in any way or rather i do hope u know that my dear and im sorry and i hope that u will not be upset if ever u are about what i think u are upset about because i never intend to hurt u in a way or rather. How can i? ur like The best friend Iv ever had!:)

I LOVE U DEAREST:)

Nadiah~

Anyway moving on, College 56 is getting very very very busy now..having training and coming down for vocal recording almost like 5 times a week in total!:) but i dun really mind cuz yeah we all know that our performance is coming on 11 July!:)

baby n i are good just that we had a fight today morning and im quite upset about it:( haiz...BUT i STILL LOVEEEE HIM DEARLY:)

Moving on, for two days i have been teaching wayang Kulit at Beatty Secondary school. SEcondary two students. They are quite a funny bunch. Though the technical class was quite noisy and rude, they are actually quite nice to work with:) One of the kids was checking out on my ass and he said this " CHER! UR THAT ONE UH SO ROUND EH"? i was like wtf.? my what SO ROUND? ..."AHYA UR BUTT LAH CHER...LIKE THE MOOON SIA!" omg. i scolded him for having no respect towards me. haiya...these days i think students are getting more daring eh? haha!

When i thought the normal academic class 2N1. They were very nice n gd! i had so much fun teaching them:) theres this australian indian mixed boy saw me doing somthing with a srew driver and i was laughing when he said...cher, u making fire uh? haha that was hilarious i thought. oh ya no to forget, th malay students actually was asking for my autograph. haha It was really weird really but i did not want to be like so action so i just said ouh ok can!:) there were three of them:) Very sweet girls:)

Talking about school, im missing my secondary school days now a lot really... those times when i was very active in dance and being s student councillor, going for camps and all:) how fcan that be!?

Ok tonite i will be going for my vocal recording again...i reallly hope we are all going to do better tonite:)

PS: My bf aint calling me yet:(

Loves n waiting,

Nadiah~

whats next?

2009-05-11T09:00:00.000-07:00

HOORAY!!!!:)

Im having my school holidays now and i don't really know what to do EXCEPt heading to the gym and my college 56 training:) well, the show is drawing nearer and im getting very excited about it:) Anyway, today i went out for dinner with dearest rahman :) i must admit that we are getting closer day by day and we are both doing great and as strong as ever:) perhaps now stronger! HEHE n im getting so much in love with him!:) SO HAPPY OK:)

wow....college 56 training is getting very very very often now:) like tuesday thursday friday saturday n sumtime sunday:) I CANT WAIT!

LOVES,

NADIAH:)

Yesterday nomore.

2009-05-09T18:10:00.001-07:00

Vesak day, 31st of may 2007.....

The day when my most fantastic father had passed away...

The day i will never be able to see him ever again...

The day i stopped making coffee for him...

The day i started thinking "why he had to go so early"

The day i thought i was going to give up

The day my mum fainted upon seeing my father's death

The day everyone had so much tears..

The day my eyes was so swollen and all red...

The day iv lost a leader...

The day iv lost my only Hero...

The day i miss my Artistic leader...

The day iv lost my best friend

The day i cried so much i could not talk...

The day i see him covered with white cloth...

The day i see him being put in the grave..

The day i met with all my cousins, aunties and old friends...

Yes yesterday was vesak day and all i ever think of was my late father...this 31stmay will be the 2nd year after he left...I cant help it but to cry while i was on the bus yesterday..thinking about him. Recalling the sweet moments while i was with him...the jokes he always told us. The way he hold on to his brushes and painted on the canvas, the way he drinks his coffee, the way he asked me to do it...the way he sculptured his works...

Till today, i still cant forget him...my father, my hero:( gosh im missing him a lot now..

Heartbroken,

SYIRAH:)

2009-05-02T06:24:00.000-07:00

"Of all the friends iv ever met, you're the one i won't forget, you listened to my problems in a kind and caring way, sometimes you go with your "OH MY GOD I FEEL THE SAME WAY TOO!", and without you, i may not be smiling today

Thank you.

I trust you with my secrets, that no one has been told. I trust you with my feelings, and in my heart your words i'll take untill im grey and old

THANK YOU :)

YOu never stop listening to all my worries, your advise and sympathy helped me moved on..

Thank you:)

Im always proud to have you as my friend, my best bitch ever, my listening partner, my ever laughing machine, my Super sexy gorgeous dance mate, my gossip girl:), my part time Lover and lastly, MY TWIN :)

I LOVE YOU NUR SYIRAH BINTE JUSNI:)

and thank you so much for all the great moments we have had together:) n im just so glad that god has brought us back together:)

Loves

Nadiah-

Whats going on

2009-04-30T07:43:00.000-07:00

Whats going on, i asked myself?

I know i have not been updating this blog of mine for sometime, thats simply because iv lost touched with it. I have been busy memorising lines...busy dancing in school, busy with teaching this and that this n that.

Oh iv got my singing exams result, got an A:) hehe. i sang the song part of that world by little mermaid:) ok today's exam was great!:) it was acting, contemparary Asian Theatre and Contemp Dance. Dance was scary because my dance teacher is scary himself! haha.

Anyway, i forgotten my lines for acting exams. Just 3 lines though and thank god to Amerie she moved on with the next line!:) hahaha

I have not been to College 56 training this week due to exams...cant wait to cum back n be back on track!:)

Im missing Syirah n dearest Ain n Rara now!:) i cant wait to meet you guys:) I LOVE YOU THREE MANY2! hehehe ok i have to get ready for autocad exams which is just super sucky which i really dun like ot a lot. fcuk

monday is malay exams. hahaha! fun fun fun!:)

PS: IM TRULY SORRY.

Loves,

Nadiah

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2009-04-23T09:49:00.000-07:00

I SHOULD NOT BE DOING THIS.

Nadiah, WAKE up.

HAFIZ!:) and college 56!

2009-04-15T03:42:00.000-07:00

Nitty bonanza and the BItchy Wawa in action!:) During the blocking of inilah nitty bonanza

Abang afi :) Tuan Assistant Director

yuyun taking over for awhile Ashraf, Aidil and ME!!:)

with the scriptwriter and director:) MR hamzah!

during dance training:)

Lately, my schedules are really really super tight and i feel that im seriously exhausted. 4 Hours of sleep most of the time and having to wake up at 6am everyday except thursday just sucks big time. Anyway, a little update about college 56 musical! :) Well, the schedules are infact getting crazier but i believe that withhardwork and effort, this can happen...and abang afi if you happen to read my blog, DUN WORRY OK:) i know u guys are really stress now right due to the NS boys then natri:( anyway, lets work hard together and get this over and done with!

So those are my photos from my musical training:)

Do watch us ok on 11 july:) Will inform you guys more about it ok !:)

Ok im going to be so busy with my musical training, teaching at xishan primary, being a production manager for my school repertoire scenes, school exams..wah gila lah siol:(

Anyway, im very happy that i met up with one of my very close friend, HAFIZ:) His leaving for germany tonight for some NS thing and hafiz, i wish u all the best ok:)

I was so happy to meet up with you and FINALLY we get to talk! hahahahaaakalau tak punyelah susah!:) And hahha the crackers last night, THANKS EH!:)

may u have a gd a safe trip apiz sahabatku!:) jgn lupa call aku when uv reached singapore later:)

Ok i got to go now...for now, i just want to say that i miss my baby rahman very much...i hope to see you soon sweetheart!:)

Loves

Nadiah-

lovelove LOVE:)

2009-04-12T09:56:00.000-07:00

IM SO INLOVE WITH YOU SWEETHEART:)

HE who makes smile everytime, he who makes me laugh like a mad woman down town...:)

ABDUL RAHMAN BIN MAHMOUD, MY LOVE:)
PS: IM YOURS~

SO much to say!!!!!

2009-04-09T09:37:00.000-07:00

First of all, i would like to anounce to everybody and also to say THANK YOU to this darling here who helped me changed MY BLOG SKIN:) frankly speaking, i dunt know how to do it and because i is not that im stupid but im just so lazy to learn how to do it. looking at those templates makes me go crazy and so i would rather ask sumone NICE to do it for me and so im happy she made it for me! nice isnt it?:) so if you guyz want to compliment, CREDITS TO THE GIRL BELOW:) ANA, I LOVE YOU LONG TIME:)

Moving on, i have so many many to talk about and i dun even know where to start.

Ok slowly. Firslty, IM SUPER TIRED NOW but i just feel the urge to blog because im just so excited to let you guys knwo what iv been up to. Ok, today i had to go for the college 56 training, damn it was so so so fun! today was dance for training and i gave it all out and i guess twinny syirah did too:) we both were liek shaking our ass off! haha anyway, before college 56, i met up with my CHILDHOOD FRIEND!!!! She migrated to Dubai like errr....9 months ago i think and im super to happy to meet her today. Though it was just for like an hour, i had a great time. Oh no dun worry im meeting her again this monday after teaching at xishan primary and i truly cant wait to meet her again! damn iv missed her so much and seeing her just now, WOW i was just lost for words! so happy ok! normal girl thing- shouts AHHHHHHH!!!!! AND HUG N KISS! haha:)

Anyway, i was taking the train today and i alighted at City hall to just hang around there while waiting for my bf to arrive at Chua chukang mrt cuz i wanted to meet him. Guess what!? i met many weird people with many crazy hairstyles and i was saying to myself " What the heck is wrong with the people around me TODAY?" there was this two girl seating down and busy chatting at city hall mrt. One's hair was a LONG WIG BLUE LUMINOUS HAIR and another was LONG wIG LUMINOUS YELLOW HAIR. I was thinking, could they be from a performance? i thought so but in a minute when i observed them closely, they were not..as what they wore was like what a normal girl would wear except the girl who had the luminous blue wig long hair, she was wearing this weird tie around her neck, checkered one....and blue pants with white top. I was seriously laughing to myself and i swear to god i took a picture of them! i wish i can upload it up here on computer but i lost my hp USB cable:( so im not able to put it on the computer to show u gusy how hilarious it was!:) not only that, i saw this guy who had a mohhock hair( I DUNT KNOW HOW TO SPELL IT) and yeah...his hair was just so wrong. It aint cool at all. i laughed when i saw him but he saw me. So i looked away and pretended that nothing happened.

Now currently im very very very very busy with the Musical and School. EXAMS ARE DRAWING NEAR and i think im going to die for lighting class. :( im trying now and i PROMISE I WUN BE ON FACEBOOK FOR NEXT LESSON!!!!! as in while in the computer room:) hehehe it was just so tempting to do so but ok now i try:) My schedules are like really tight now. Mondays and Tuesdays after school im teaching at xishan primary for origami art class, from like 5 to 6 plus. Its an afternun session school btw. Then on tuesday i have to head down to sembawang for musical training. Wednesday i guess im quite free but haha i reserve this day normally for bf:). Musical training will be more intensive very very very verys oon as we aint got much time now. Show will be in July and we just have to do things right and do it well!:) GO COLlEGE 56!:) heheheh.

NAFA's EXAMS are drawing nearer...i have to get so many things done. My solo monologue for Contemp theatre class, have to rehearse duologue scene with dearest amerie for acting, i have to get my scripts right for like FOUR THINGS FOR NOW. CLAIRe's Monologue. Daniel' monologue. College 56 Musical Script which is a lot and lastly Pitchfork Disney's scripts. WOW. Sounds so stressful. INFACT YES iT IS! :( but its ok, i will try my very best to do it and just try my best:) hehe. i hope i can make it through:)

k i better get going now, im super exhausted.

PS: I had SO MUCH FUN today with my sweetheart rahman and Syirah in the MRT ESPECIALLY. ALL of us were laughing liek crazy!:) I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH! MWAH!:)

LOves n happily in love,

Nadiah :)

latest update!:)

2009-04-07T10:25:00.000-07:00

Well, i have been missing for the past few days and yes again i have been busy. want to know busy with what!? :)

LATEST UPDATE!!!!!!!

IM AN ASSISTANT ART TEACHER IN A PRIMARY SCHOOL CALLED XISHAN PRIMARY AT YISHUN AND I SWEAR TO GOD THEY ARE A BUNCH OF CUTE CUTE CUTE KIDS!:)

Imagine this, a primary two boy came up to me and said.." Ms nadiah ms nadiah, i tell you something very funny you must laugh ok ms nadiah...ok u knwo uh ms nadiah, my name is johnny chua and then the another student in the other class also got my same name!" hahahha!!!! How cute is that!? oh ya...another malay girl asked me...ms nadiah, last year i peroformed in the national day, i wore a big pink round skirt...you got see me on tv!?"

When i heard that question, i was literally laughing. Seriously, they are so so cute...So yeah basically currently now we are doing origami and so not to forget iv learnt some folds which i never thought im ever going to do it! hahha. we did bird pattern, a box, and today we did flower!

So basically, im currently doing this for a part time job..i cant afford to work on so many days teaching as i also have to commit in theatre nafa school as well as my college 56 musical.

Talking about college 56 Musical, today was or stage blocking day and i guess it went pretty alright. I was fatigue due to one full day of activity. I left home at 7am and i reached home today at 11.45pm. I had school in the morning, late afternoon was tecahing at xishan primary and late evening was college 56 musical. I should be sleeping now but i just thought that i better jus update some before i start to become lazy AGAIN:) haha.. Getting back on college 56 Musical, I see we are going n leading to somewhere and im quite happy with that... each individual did great but ofcourse, there are still many more room for improvements including myself:)

Me Ain and Syirah were trying our very best to find a nice signature pose for our bitchy wawa sentence everytime they mention it but we finally came up with like a -SNAP- FINGER-BLACK AMERICAN-POSE :) haha! if you dont get what i mean any of you...then you go ask around lah!:) hahaha.

Anyway, baby came to watch again n we went back home togather...he sent me to jurung east,waited for my train and left. I LOVE YOU CHARMING:)

Ok, heres a thing im thinking now...should i join VARIASI as a whole company production thing or for just this college 56 itself? most parts in me tells me i should but sumthing seemed to bother me..afraid that it will clash so much with school, knowing that next year im gonna be drop dead busy with repertoire scenes and all....so i really dunt know and i guess i have t0 think hard about it. But, cum to think of it, It would be a good proper start, exposure and experience!:) so yeah i will see lah how:)

ok my eyes are tired now...its time for lalland guys...:)

PS: IM still craving for mussels with many many cheese n garlic n butter!:)

Loves n so happy,

Ndiah

2009-04-01T04:50:00.000-07:00

All in all, i must say that truly madly deeply missing secondary school days...Seriously, i miss my dancing moments, i miss those days where i always have to say the freaking pledge infront of the whole one thousands plusplus students. hahaha. ok because i WAS a student councillor and the head of publicity:) HAHA! n this pictures are sum that i can take from my moments in secondary shool days! winning the MS TANGLIN AWARD IS JUST SO AWESOME LAH:) haha

my moment! HAHA

with my best buddy bjorn n izwan:)

in malay class!

with dance mate rachel:)

the malay kids in school:) graduating students 2007 girls.

photos

mixed emotions.

2009-04-01T04:22:00.000-07:00

Lately, i have been feeling rather simple yet complicated.ok i don't know how the fcuk to explain that but yeah its what inside..i guess? i just need someone or perhaps somthing to lighten me up inside..perhaps my bf would help me eh?:) hehe

Anyway, one by one my classmates left me n the rest!:( SO SAD LAH. Michelle had officially withdrawn herself from school...due to her own reasons. i guess we all just have to stick together and work our way through here in nafa theatre course:) I WANT TO SUCCEED IN THIS OK I WANT TO!

Anyway, yesterday was colllege 56 musical training and baby was so nice to accompanied me also. I bet he did enjoyed the moment while he was there as i can see that he kept on laughing hearing us reading the script.. Well something unexpected happened yesterday...Someone which i do not want to mention, was unhappy with me last night. We had a debrief and i said something and i guess it kinda pinched her. So yeah she started being so defensive and all sorts starts coming out from her mouth, i find it rather childish seriously. I mean if u dare do something so drastic to URSELf, why so narrow minded into this kind of things? which is afterall not directly meant for you? i was being general ok with my remark. gdness gracious. Anyway i dun care..bitch about me all u want. Im meeting you tmr anyway to sort this thing out. ITS NOT DONE BABE.

ok tmr im having my daniel jenkins class and i have yet to do my characterisations thinging. feeling so lazy to do as well. Anyway, sometimes i feel like i want to quit school and just go straight into the real world...but i guess im just not ready yet for it n have many more steps to learn. Lately, i have been dragging myself to school. WHY? BEcause i simply dunt know. I no longer have this drive in me which i used to have before. is it because im distracted or is it because theres a problem going on? i fuckingly do not know. But what i know, im NOT GOING TO QUIT NAFA:) its the best place to be in:) a place i call my second home:)

ok i better get going now n do sumthing productive:)

I love you my charming rahman:)

mwah!

nadiah-

Photos time!

2009-03-25T08:08:00.000-07:00

I met with my tanglin secondary school mate:) IT WAS SO FUN!:) I LOVE THEM LEH! We should meet up again guys:)

My two ever closefriends:) apiz and nad.
The gaANG:)

NAd oh nad.....hahaha

eh candid!

ITS PHOTOS TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!:)The day when we went out to watch SLumdog millionarie with mummy n lil bro n kuzzin!

The wonderful outing we had shesha:)

say yaw!

He is one adorable guy:)

:) happy happy happy!

2009-03-24T07:54:00.000-07:00

Winning the MIss World no teeth Award:)

the moment i first saw this big thing at Bugis Mrt station, i started to laugh to myself..i swear i felt so so so silly doing the thing i did above but bottom line, who dunt want some fun right? omg. How beautiful can i be? sometimes i wish can get the award for ms ugliest teeth award. HAHA:) its so hilarious. Im sure some of you have seen this picture here ryt? well..dun be shocked, you never know..the next oicture you will see is mine:) HAHA UGLIER den this perhaps? i hope....NOT:) haha.

Oki know i have not been blogging thats because i have not been having much time really. Im on the computer yes i was but im always helping my mum with her documents and typings and sending of email. Gosh...was quite stressful back three days ago when she was asking me to do so many things. But anyway, im glad it has all ended:)

Today we had hairdressing class and mS may helped me with straightening up my hair...i swear i look so young again. like the pictures i took back those days in secondary school:) hehe. My classmate said i looked like chinese but i dun think so. im tann. hahahha:) anyway, after that we had lighting class. OH BALLS. we learnt about autocad. I SWEAR IT WAS SO SO SO DIFFICULT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:( i was lost at first but managed to catch up but now im starting to forget whatever iv learnt just now. oh shits im so dead..

So after school, i went to meet baby at Clementi MRt..he went off to gym n guess what? i SLEPT in the gym because i did not bring any clothes or shoes. hahha! didnot plan anyway, so yeah....i was so happy to meet him! like i always do:) I LOVE YOU SWEETHEAERT.

ok moving on, just now the mastereign art company called me up saying they most probably want to post me for weekdays monday wednesday n tuesday for the art teacher assistant in secondary schools.. So cool isnt it?:) Damn im lovE art. hehe! art has always been my passion. and im not talking only about acting n singing n dancing but painting n drawing:) FINE ARTS:)

Ok i better get going now...looking forward for thursday college 56 musical training!:)

Loves n happy,

Nadiah:)

What great day!:)

2009-03-08T21:27:00.000-07:00

Well last night was my performance at the esplanade and i would like to thank all of you who came down to support...mostly i would want to mention, my mum, Sister tini, Sister Kina abang Zaman, Habri, Baby Rahman, Ahmad,Khai and Zul! n DEborah Cassie and Andre and AIdil and Iskandar!!:) It went well...i had problems tieing up my damn skirt cuz it was so hard to make it tight! anyway, this is the video...my Solo part u guys actually have to tilt ur head cuz when my bro video, he turned the other way round.:) all in all, iv had great time...and to farhana draling, im sure u have had a great time though we were all quiote nervous! u did well lah dear jangan worry2!:) I LOVE YOU sister!:)

PS:im off to the gym with sweetheart will catch up again later

Let the right one in?

2009-03-06T19:58:00.000-08:00

Last night, baby had to work despite having fever...when i finally met him after his work at bout 9pm, his body temperature was getting from bad to worst. He was very hot. I pity him a lot last night. And with that stupid caucasion woman who asked him to stay longer. DAMN YOU. anyway we met because we wanted to catch a movie...i wanted to watch slumdog millionaire but because my Bf wanted to watch let the right one in. Therefore, i decided to give him a surprise to buy that movie ticket for the both of us which he thought we were going to watch slumdog millionaire.. So yeah there was a small surprise there for him. I was really hoping that the movie will be goood but OH MY GOD. IT SUCKS BIG TIME. it was so draggy and it wasnt as scary as we thought it may be! even a VAMPIRE FALLING IN LOVE WITH A SMALL BOY NAME OSKAR. I just don't know why but iv been watching the suckiest movie. There were times where all shows were just so great and awesome and i guess this is the time where its juts so not good. :( Wasted my fcuking 20 bucks on it man! well yeah i treated my bf:) haha.

After the movie, we headed back home..he was super hot that when i kissed his lips, i felt as though mine was burning. SERIOUSLY.

SO today, i will be going for the third College 56 muscial training. Looking forward to what they have in store for us today! SO far, so good!

ANNOUNCEMENT: TMR AT 9PM I WILL BE PERFORMING AT THE ESPLANADE. SINGING A MALAY SONG AT THE NOISE SINGAPORE EVENT. DO COME DOWN IF YOU GUYS WANT TO WATCH! FARHANA AND KUNJUNG WILL BE SINGING TOO!:)

Loves,

Nadiah

GONG GONG TIME!:)

2009-03-05T08:07:00.000-08:00

I Was CRAVING BADLY for this particular food! GONG GONG! And guess what? Today my mum cooked it for me when i requested this food from her today! i have been craving for this food since months ago an dim telling you, i can't sleep everytime i think about this food. I dunt know why this attracts me...it just seems delicious don't you think? i love it from the first time i tasted it when i was young..SO SO SO SO YUMMMY:) and i swear to GOD IM SUPER HAPPY ESTATICLY HAPPY! that i got to eat this :) and dearest FARHANA darling, i hope to let you taste my mum's gong gong sumday:) im sure you eat and you will never want to leave your table. hehe.

And the greatest thing is, MY BF WAS at my place to eat together with the family! he wasnt abel to eat that much as he has some kind of allergy to seafood but he makes himself useful by hitting on the gong gong everytime when we are not able to take it our from the shell! :) hehe for that, I LOVE YOU MORE LAH SWEETHEART!:) and thank you baby for sending me to sembahwang MRT:) how sweet of you eventhough u are sick, yet ur still accompanying me! ur such an adorable person:) heheh so lucky to have you:) Please eat ur medcine n rest well k darling! i love you:)

PS: thank you mummy for cooking thsi for ME:) so love you . Mwah!

Moving on, today was the second day of training for the college 56 Musical!:) it was much more effective as compared to the previous one. Today, we played quite a lot of teamwork games...like TRUSTFALL. its so awesome. One of my dearest friend tore her pants while doing the exercise...she is so damn cute im telling you and her name is ain:) and her Bf is our dance tecaher:) haha cool aint it? anyway, we have one NYAH in our team:) Pretty boy. LOL . i dunt know and i have got no comment. RED BRA. WOW sexy.

it was overall very very very fun yet it was also very tiring...we had to run three round of the big fcuking basketball coourt.(NOT THE NORMAL SIZE) and aidil was so funny he kept on laughing at me because i was so the semangat and he was telling me that my hair was like sum person up from the tree, Wtf lah? hahaa!

"DEarest SYirah WAS SO KIND TO tompang us in her daddy's car:) i LoVe you dear!:) if it werent for ur kindness, PERHAPS NOW IM STILL WITH AIDIL SEATING AT THAT CC WAITING FR THE RAIN TO STOP!:( HAHAHAHA! kan kan kan aidil kan? hahaha"

ok til here, im TIRED. I need to rest...hehe

PS: I CANT WAIT FOR THE NEXT MUSICAL TRAINING:)

loves

nadiah

My new found lil sister :)

2009-03-03T20:21:00.001-08:00

DEarest Farhana,

She laughs with me, She studies with me, She giggles with me, she gossips with me, She laughs at me, i laugh at her back, She sings with me..Ana, Iv been very happy lately and to tell you the truth, besides my bf who makes me happy, YOU'RE ONE OF THE REASON WHY! :)

I LOVE YOU LIL SISTA :) mwah!

What a great day! :)

2009-03-03T20:06:00.000-08:00

Guess what everyone? I SLEPT while watching the movie.. MARLEY AND ME.

I did not find it that nice as i thought it would be. HAHA well, the thing is, Me =, my Bf, Ahmad and Farhana we wanted to watch SLumdog Millionaire But because the timing was late and also i had to rush down to mediacorp for my radio drama Recording so we had to watch somehting thats earlier then 5 oclock or i will definitely be late:(

SO yeah we watched MArley and Me and we both took the couple seat. I went to the extend of lying down on my bf's lap and end up in lala land. i slept for a little while. Really i swear if a movie can make me sleep, shows how bored it is to me. :( lucky the ticket was just 6 bucks! haha!

Ana and Ahmad did not enjoy it as well...dearest ana finds it rather boring too man:( haha! ok moving on, After watching movie. Me n my Bf went to MEdiacorp for my Radio Recording. If you guys are wondering whats radio recording...well im currently working on a drama on a radio. so its like radio drama recording for Warna 94.2Fm.:) I will let you guys know again when the show will be broadcast.. In the bus 157 otw to mediacorp, i had a tiff with my bf. Its very stupid reason..im very sorry sweetheart. I did not mean to hurt you in what i said if i ever i did. I don't want to fight, i hate to fight with you. IT SUCKS BIG TIME. I LOVE YOU SWEAATHEART:) MWAH!

baby had a great time in the recording studio. He kept on laughing with the fellow actors..im very happy that he did not feel left out like i thought he would be:) and lastly, thank you for accompanying me to mediacorp:) I Love you darla~

PS: I WANT TO EAT GONG GONG, please im seriously craving for ONE

Loves

Nadiah

HAppy!!!!!!

2009-03-02T10:40:00.000-08:00

I was browsing through my pictures when came across this. I love this picture, and whats more, i love these two princesses of mine:) FARHANA AND CONSTANCE :) and also...i love the rest of my nafa mates ESPECIALLY...AMMMMSSSYY AND DEBO:) I HEARTS YOU BOTH TOO! oh ya and this was the time when i love and enjoyed wearing my freaking wig hair which i neglected it now already! hahaha:) MY best girls:)

We have the same passion, we love doing the same things, she loves dancing and so do i...She loves Long john Cheese, I love it so much too!..Come to think of it, Dearest Syirah, Im very happy that god have brought us back together again doing this college 56 musical:) Because being close to you during secondary school days was such a great experience that anyone would ever want to have:) and im just so glad that now im here with you again working together in whar we love and enjoy most doing! and that is, PERFORMAING ARTSL:) you are my coolest girlfriend ever:) I HEARTS YOU DEAR!~:)

DREAMS....

2009-03-02T10:06:00.000-08:00

Well, guess what everybody? I have been having bizarre dreams for this past few days... thre days agp i dreAmt that THREE MEN were chasing after me just to look at my panty...and there was one part when i was going up a small hill, one bangla indian black guy. (SCARY SHIT) he was literally under me and grabbing my leg and pulled it wide open just to see the colour of my panty! I swear to god i can PEE AT THAT MOMENT cuz i was so so so so afraid. HAve been watching PORN OR WHAT!? HELLLL NOOOO!!!!!!!!!! i dun even watch porn. Following on, i ran to this small hut and i managed to escape from that indian guy... and guess what? i ran and i hid under this small hut. I was squating and when i looked down, there was another man checking out my panty...this time, he was a chinese man. His face was so pervertic i can really scream the hell out of my dream man! Gdness gracious! and today was cool..I dreamt that my sister tini gave me so much money suddenly. I opened my wallet and i found 300 dollars inside. I asked her inmy dream...eh why u gave me so much money sia? she said...its ok for fun u can keep it ok ? I WAS SO SO HAPPY!...and when i woked up at about 10am, there was THIRTY DOLLARS on my right hand. I was appalled.At the back of mind i was thinking, EH was i dreaming or what man? and i actually got up just to check in my wallet and i was SO UPSET WHEN THERE WAS JUST 10 BUCKS! HAHAHAHA. I found out that it was my sister tini who gave me the thirty dollars on my right hand just before she wanted to go to work...how cool is that? i dreamt of getting money and when i woke up i saw money on my hand! WOW IF ONLY THIS HAPPENS EVERYDAY! IM A HAPPY PERSON!:) HEHE dun u think so?:)

OK moving on, today i had singing rehearsal with farhana and kunjung with firdaus...It went well. We now just have to figure out the dance steps for our upcoming performance this coming Sunday:) at the Esplanade. We are performing this sunday, at the Esplanade for the Noise Sinagapore event. Singing a MALAY SONG BTW:) hehehe. After training, met Ahmad and we ate Long john...Soemthing very very funny happened. There was this lady who walked so fucking confident with HIGH HEELs...i guess she was just about to be arragont and show off the way she fucking walk when she TRIPPED AND FELL FORWARD. her friend that was infront of her actually was pushed forward by her! i did not want to laugh i swear but i swear i could not control, So i had to make a U TURN and walk to the back, just because i did not want the girl to know that im laughing so hard at her. Ahmad and Farhana was laughing like one mad people...:)?RIGHT ANA DEAR? hehehe! it was one good awesome day man! We then headed to MUSI CAFE and we met baby there too. MY BF:) he was after work...with that smartwear of his:) just so drop dead hot lah:) We stayed there for a little while and then we went back home...Baby and Me took the bus back home while farhana and Ahmad took the train:)

PS: I LOVE MY MAN, ABDUL RAHMAN:)

Loves

Nadiah-

thnk you!

2009-03-01T01:52:00.000-08:00

I happened to find this pictutre in facebook by someone who actually uploaded it. I don't quite know who it is but i sWear i love this picture!:) anyway, this is what i wore to the Pesta PErdana 10! :) and thanks to whoever who put this up!

I wished i was there.

2009-02-28T07:50:00.000-08:00

I was awaken by my mum's high pitched voice in the morning today...As early as even before the sun rises..She shouted " GRANDMA HAD PASSED AWAY!" I heard that and i could not even cry. Because..i was simply TOO SHOCKED. Sometimes i wonder, why is it that people around me and especially my loved ones dies shockingly.....are all of these fated or what? maybe yea but why...i always wonder....and the most unbelivable part was, while everyone was busy getting ready to go to malaysia to visit my grandma who is sleeping there peacefully, i just stood there and watched. I wasnt able to go to Malaysia as my passport was already due. I feel like a hopeless piece of black shit i swear. I wished i could fly there without being caught. In the first place, We cant even fly..:( This is the point of time whereby i hope miracles can happen.

I was very desperate.Desperate.desperate.

I cried weeks ago when i heard that my grandma was very sick...but we were told that she was recovering very well already and she was supposed to discharge TODAY. But, i guess it was her time to go....to the another world. World with a much better place and everything is just so good...I hope she goes to heaven, I will pray for her just like how i always do for my late father. Im happy that my grandma left because i believe that she can visit my father there...I know my granny misses my father so much and i knwo that my father misses his mum so much too...I hope and pray that both are placed in heaven...A beautiful land none can ever imagine..and tonite...i really wonder..tmr may even be my last day on earth...you can never predict. Seriously. Like my late father, who expects that he was going to go? NONE DID. He was a very healthy man...but because god loves him more, so he took him away from us..

Anyway, lets skip this. I don't want to end up having tears in my eyes.

.OK today was the First day of Musical college 56 training! It was quite fun. We laughed a lot as per usual..Aidil was laughing histaricly as always. HAHA. Me and syirah twinny was so funny. We both wanted to eat LONG JOHN. But im sorry dear i did note at with you...hehe next time ok dear:) anyway, today the "KALAU NAK STEP JAMBU BOLEH" girl was there too...i was so annoyed with her. We down there standing up and going through the exercise, SHe down there seating down with her handphone..and shes always with her phone..and the worst thing was her phone rang and she still have the cheek to talk for like one minute? But yea i think i understand...knowing where she came from, i guess i should be the smart one to understand and give in to her unacceptable attitude. HAHA.

Today after training i went to vivo City to meet my baby..He got a new job btw. At SENTOSA:) haaa. i guess he will start to be tann again! we went to eat long john. tell you guys somehting ok..

IM FUCKING IN LOVE WIH LONG JOHN CHEEEEEEEESEEEEEEEYYYYYYYY WEEESSSEEEEYY!!!!!!! I SWEAR I CAN EAT SO MUCH OF THOSE!!!! DAMN!!!!!:)

Ok till here.

PS: I dunt want to lose anyone again...not this time:(

Loves

Nadiah

GLITERATTI!!!!

2009-02-27T10:06:00.000-08:00

Today, i went with my mum to the Pesta Perdana 10. It was indeed very fun as i managed to meet up with my mediacorp friends:) many were dressed u so so so so so so so stunningly! n everyone was filled with glitters everywhere since that was the theme of the event..i took many picstures but it was very sad that y camera batt went flat so i only managed to take the pics through my handphone.

Thank god theres a thing called handphone camera. HAHA.

Met up with Rahsia Perkahwinan crew and fellow friends who acted with me in the show...im so happy for kak rahimah who won the best woman actress award thsi year:) She deserves it alot though! anyway, this coming tuesday im going to mediacorp again for drama Radio recording..

Its two weeks of school holidays but its not exactly a school holiday i guess. We still have to come back to school for make up lessons and oh man..im going to be so busy with my musical for the college 56. TMR is my first training and im DAMN EXCITED FOR IT WOOOHOOO!:)

Oh ya talking about performance, i will be having a performance at Esplanade with Farhana and Kunjung fo the Noise Singapore event. We will be singing a Malay song which is composed by Firdaus, our third year music student in NAFA:)

Im looking forward for so many things coming up for me..:)

For now, just a short saying. I MISS MY RAHMAN DARLING:( I LOVE YOU DEAR:)

Loves

Nadiah

Ps: i tink its best you stop whatever you are trying to do.

slut is always one.

2009-02-24T21:05:00.001-08:00

YOU BITCH IS SUFFERING FROM A SICKNESS.

YOU ARE IN SELFDENIAL.

YOU ARE HOPELESS PIECE OF SHIT.

I CAN JUST PICK U UP N THROW U IN THE BIN.

I * HATE*YOU* SLUT*

IM SOrry, im not vulgar but this time, i just have to, YOU STOP BEING NICE TO ME.

ASSHOLE.

I JUST DUN LIKE YOU. BITch.

2009-02-24T08:05:00.001-08:00

I HATE YOU. BiTch.

why Pretend to be so nice when u have an ulterior motive?

Ur born a slut n may u just forever be a SLut.

Ur a nuisance. n ur Disturbing.

Get out of my life for i dun need you. I dun need your pretenCe. You show me your colour, i show you three Times More. GEt. SO two Words.

FUCK OFF.

What a gReat day!:)

2009-02-24T06:41:00.000-08:00

TODAY WAS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

School ended very very early today so the three of us..me farhana n constance decided to watch a movie. We watched the " Guys are just not that into you" a godd movie i must say! There was one part when jennifer aniston hugged the guy and i was already in tears... and it was so funny cuz my dearest ana seating on my right was almost tearing too and she looked at me and we both laughed in the Cinema!:) what went the best was we three were making fun of sumone's laughter and i think i shall not mention i over here who but OMG IT WAS SO HILARIOUS that we were all laughing like hell! and i was doing this hip hop move thing and farhana was laughing like untill she was goingt o DROP. right dear?:) i know u like it a lot...hahhaa i disturbed her even after iv crossed the road, i did the hip hop move again!:) HAHA ALL in all, i had a fantastic fun day with my loved ones:)

I LOVE YOU THREE!

AND to AMERIE AMMMMSYYYYYYYYYY darling....

I MISSS YOU DEAR!!!!!!!!!! please take gd acre alryt and do cum cum cum cum ( CUM?) to school ok! i love you too:)

MY Crazy ladies that i LOVE!!!
The night we went all black:)

DArling Farhana

Sweety Constance:)

IT WAS SO FUN!

2009-02-23T04:30:00.000-08:00

Ok guys this is something very very interesting that i must update all of you! :) ok basically im currently involve in a malay musical for my freaking FIRST TIME and im so excited for it! Last saturday was the meet with the Directors and all the people incharge..the vocal teacher and all:) we had to learn some dance steps and it was so so fun im telling ya! HAHA our performance will be on 11 of july and it will be at the DBS theatre! how cool:)

The dance steps are like the ones you see in Greese show but its quite simple for now...we have yet to learn more! ok i made so many friends there..and they are mainly twiiny syirah's friends BUT that was before:) they are now also My FRIENDS! yae im so happy hahaha:) they are a whole lot of fun and fun and fun and fun bunch group of people i swear im going to have such an awesome time during the process of this musical!:) btw, the title is colleage 56 the Musical!:)

IM ALL OUT for it but im just afraid it will clash with school. But if it does clashes, i will try to arrange the schedule:) i just hope that this will be a very gd turn out:)

Oh man..today i had a very bad mensors cram.. and when i came to school my friends went like.."OMG NADIAH WHY U LOOK SO PALE?" i felt the diff though. my body was weak but ihad to go schoo because i did not want to miss acting class..Acting class today was so sos fun. We played the LOGICAL game. im sure you guys have got no idea what im talking about anyway wth logical game!? hahahaha. its hard to explain so yeah...nevermind:)

HOOORAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!IV GOT BACK MY sony ericsson handphone!!!! and i went to collect it with baby at wisma atria..its free because i still have me warranty card though, lucky me:)

Today baby went back to my place to tutor my lil brother mathematics for his upcoming exams:) till here...

I LOVE MY NAFA MATES n im so happy that its a new week..MEANS...a whole lot of new fun things in school with them!:)

LOVES

nadiah-

A new Found Sister :)

2009-02-20T06:24:00.000-08:00

She makes me smile with the way she laughs, She makes me happy with the way she teases me..I never knew i can find the bestfriend quality in her. I want to be closer to her as i always feel comfortable being around her...i love her just like my lil sister :) I used to think that she may just be a friend...a nromal friend perhaps but as day passes by, i feel so strongly connected to her. The thing is, we have many things in common and she knows i know. haha. Her crazy cute laughter that never fails to make me laugh...sumhow, i care a lot for her. theres just this spark in us i feel whenever we meet:).......I dunt know why everytym when she tells me that she feels upset, i tend to be a lil sad too. Really. When shes very very happy, im even happier:) When she cries, I comfort her.. when she complains, i listen. then say out what i have to.:) ALL in all, Iv found a new bestfriend:)

My Nafa Mates have been very very very very aWesome!:) I love my four girlfriends a lot.. CONSTANCE, AMERIE, FARHANA,DEBORAH SO MUCH:) Its like when they are not in school even just one of them, i don't feel as happy as im capable of whenever all are present!! Imust say, they are my PART TIME LOVERS? hehe? i treasure them a lot. Every one of them makes me happy and its because of them IM HAPPY OF GOING TO SCHOOL.

Iv had a great day today...i went of today with baby...damn he was s handsome with his work uniform:)

I FEEL SO LOVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:)

LOves again,
nadiah

modelling:)

2009-02-19T09:29:00.000-08:00

Ok i dont know why but now adays i only got the mood to upload videos sia!:)

ok this video up here is my runway modelling video which was taken late last year around december?:) it was for this bridal modelling thing called garciadefernanadez:) enjoy!

Loves

Nadiah-

funnny funny funny

2009-02-19T04:12:00.000-08:00

Here is a video i want to share with all of you.i sucked the helium from a balloon!...in translation..." FUCK THAT GUY,TOUCH MY BOOBS DUN WANT TO PAY!" ( TRANVESTITE)

I tell u what everybody...i was lauging like a mad woman when watched this video..

enjoy!:)

I Love you:)

2009-02-16T06:41:00.000-08:00

"BEcause you are the reason that made me smile today, you are the reason why im looking forward for tmr..you are the reason why i should smile...you are the reason that makes me happy.. you are the reason that makes me laugh...you are the reason that makes me a happier person...you are the reason that makes me so bubbly and joyful today...Sweetheart, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND HAPPY 15 Mth!" :)

Anyway, this was the video that i did for my beloved bf when it was our Anniversarry:) I feel so happy now the fact that tmr will be our 15 mth! Oh man...Im so grateful to have bump onto him at jurung point two years ago in october...that was the point of time when i was like..OMG...rahman..."SO cute man..SO handsome" HAHA! it was really funny come to think of it:) But now the fact that im happily in love with him makes me a happier person and i really have got nothing more to ask except, "MAY WE BOTH LAST LONG" because i really really have a lot of hopes in us...

Baby, Happy 15mth to you and always know that i will always love you:) you are my hero, you are MY MAN :)

Loves,

Nadiah:)

PS: IM FEELING SO SO SO SO HAPPY NOW I WANT TO HUG MY BF! HEHE

WHat a DAY!

2009-02-15T05:17:00.000-08:00

I think i was so stupid and blur yesterday, i truly WAS.

ONE : I WAS OTW TO MALAYSIA TO MELAKA TO VISIT MY ILL GRANNY WHO WAS HOSPITALISED AND WHEN I ALREADY REACHED THE TUAS CHECKPOINT, I REALISED THAT MY PASSPORT HAVE ALREADY DUE. 1ST FEBRUARY 2009! I WAS FCUKING PISSED AT MYSELF. SO my bro inlaw, my two sisters left without me...i had to back home by taxi and one of the police officer excorted me to the taxi stand. Beside the taxi stand there was a busstop so i decided to take the bus instead.

TWO: i went out to town with baby and i was supposed to bring my sony ericsson handphone for repair...i though i left it on the table and did not bring it along with me...so i assumed that it wasnt in my handbeg. And even when i did checked, it really wasnt inside... SO my baby got irritated by me cuz i was supposed to get the phone repaired a long time ago...i was telling him confidently that i did not bring my handphone, i forgotten. When i got home, I was looking for the phone...searched everywhere, in my drawer...on the table and it was nowhere to be found UNTIL....I opened up my beg again and it was somewhere inside hidden by my make up beg. I was so dump i relly felt dump..

Anyway, i was very sad yesterday when i wasnt able to visit my granny in malaysia...its been so long since i last met her and the fact tha now i know she is really sick,makes the matter worst. IMAGINe..on oxygen support and tubes all over .going through her mouth and all. UNCONSCIOUS. i cant take that really. i love her a lot though shes a naggy granny. Shes talkative just like me. Shes sporty and loves to joke. Now she lying down there hopelessly. I broke into tears when i called my mum telling her that i could not come over because my passport already due..i WAS SO AFRAID that i may be too late to see her..Im just hoping that everything will be fine very very soon:(

oh ya moving on...yesterday i went out with my dearest rahman..we went to watch movie. UNDERWORLD. It was an AWESOME SHOW IM TELLING YA!:) really....i had goosbumssss alll over me while watching the movie...gosh just so awesome! before that, we ate at lucky plaza. AYAM PENYET N GADO2. SO so sedap ok. i want to go there again sumday but i must sya that the food is quite EX lah...i mean one ayam penyet for 6.50? wtf lah..Thanks fo rthe wonderful nite sweetheart:) LOVING U ALWAYS:)

PS: I CANT WAIT TO MEET MY NAFA MATES TMR. I LOVE THEM A LOT :)

i hope i hope and i continue hoping,
Nadiah.

Feeling tight again.

2009-02-13T04:12:00.000-08:00

The only reason why i neglected my blog recently was because.. i did not had much time..

Anyway talking about time, now i feel so tight and worked up with many many things..Im sure you guys are aware that im working now at Eunos with the TATAMi Shop Singapore..right? somedays, i feel so so tired and even that i have to go to work. The fact that i have to handle my work and school and other things together makes me feel really worked up. In march, so many things will be in store for me, to the extend of i dunt know which one to choose..I have Mediacorp radio recording, I have Singing performance with my dearest ana at esplanade, i have an offer wuth the mastereign arts company which is just so fucking awesome. BUT, im so afraid if i take up all, i may end up killing myself. And will i even have time for my family as well as my dearest sweetheart, Rahman. Whatever i do now, theres just too many things to consider...things are not as direct as it used to be. I miss my life before where i can just say Ok to everything and i dunt have to worry bout anything..im more conscious of my surroundings now which i think is good but sumtyms it kindda stress me up too.. ..

ALL i wish to do now is, TO GO FOR HOLIDAY. Seriously, i really miss going for holidays..those younger days where i used to travel all around Malaysia, Indonesia, China, and Turkey with family.. Life had changed eversince my dad passed away...Its so different that i noticed the lack of communication in the family...I want to make a difference in this but i dunt know how. I want to make my mum the most happiest women in the world but perhaps not yet...Im still depending on her for school expenses..though im working, thats just to support my own expenses and bills. I want to be an independent woman..I want to succeed in life and be the best that i can be. I want to be successful in my Acting career and the Arts industry..Theres so many things that i want to do...i wish i can do it just with a click..PATIENCE AND HARDWORK thats what i need to do.

Sometimes, when i daydream, i wonder...after i graduate from Diploma in Theatre what am i going to do..how my life would be..Will i ever be successful? I HOPE i will..

anyway, many things have happened to me..Baby and i are doing great as per usual, though we do had some fights, we reconciled pretty fast...I see him in my future and im really hoping for the best. Iv gone through many ups n downs with him and i just hope that all these will lead up to a happy ending.MARRIAGE:) yes marriage. Thats what i hope for between us. I never knew i can be so in love with someone untill he came into my life.. His just like another part of me. I feel so sad if his sad. I feel so mad if his MAd. I feel so amazingly happy whenever he is. Our chemistry is so strong that i believe nothing can break us apart...Except, if its just really not meant to be. WE just hope. and i hope that my HOPE will turn out into reality sumday...perhaps in 6 or 7 years to come..:)

Today, mama had a call saying that my granny in melaka is very very sick. She was sent to the hospital with an oxygen support..and was sent to an emergency ward..btw, she is my Dad's mum. SO yeah my granny beside my father.
Come to think of it, Tmr is Valentines day and if anything goes wrong and if something were to happen to my grandma, this would be the second time i will tear on a good day like Valentines day.Two years back during 31st May 2007, my Dad passed away when everyone was happily enjoying their public holiday, Vesak Day. so i just hope that this will never have to happen again. If it does, i will have to come to melaka tmr right away and my baby will be left alone to celebrate V day. Perhaps i will make it up to him if anything were to happen..Now i hope again..that my granny will be fine soon.:(

Ciows for now..
I want to eat Pizza with so many cheeeese, im craving for one i swear:(

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO ALL:)

I LOVE MY BELOVED RAHMAN BABY:)
MWAHMWAH

loves,
nadiah

birthday bash!:)

2009-01-23T05:06:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIAH!!!!!

Celebrated with my beloved family...
The Nafa mates gave me a wonderful birthday surprise! and Lastly..my beloved sweetheart made a surprise birthdae for me:)

At Telok Blangah Hill Park...

this year was so special as iv had THREE CAKES! WOOHOO!

All in all, i would like to thank all of you whom have made my birthday a very special and an unforgettable one. It was truly heart warming and i appreciate it a lot:)

Ok Moving on, yesterday i went to Vivo city for some NAFA APPRECIATION PARTY for the SA (Student ambassadors)
it was a whole lots of fun EXCEPT for the last part. I was quite pissed actually..with who i dont really know..because we could have had a gd ending at the last part but then everyone was so damn busy doing their things and we could not settle down and therefore it leads to us just lazing around, standing around taking pictures instead of settling down and have some more fun like playing games or what. But anyways, it was a gd day sumhow.:)

WE took lots n lots of pictures as per usual:)

Today, i was not fit to go to school. I felt very sick in the morning...my headache was killing me and my whole body felt so weak..i vommited in the morning and i could not wake up. i was so surprised that when i woke up and look at the time, it was already 1pm. My mum did not wake me up nor did she scolded me because she knew that i needed to rest.. Now a days, whenever i miss school, i will feel quite sad that i missed it. Other then the fact that i miss being with my friends, but its more of what i miss out during class. Now i really see the importance of coming to school EVERY SINGLE DAY AND NEVER BE LATE. its quite hard when we miss out especially for dance class and acting..so this semester my new goal is to cum school EVERYDAY ON TIME N TRY TO CUM SCHOOL EVEN IF IM A LITTE BIT SICK. Today, i had to be excused. I was so weak and my muscle were all aching and seriously i could not wake up. Its as if im 100kg. that HEAVY. so finallly when i woke up at 1pm i showered hot water and took a taxi to the polyclinic.

I was there as 2.25 n i left from the damn place at 4.30pm. I had to wait for ONE HOUR for the consultation and another half and hour for the medicine. I was so pissed and seriously i felt like fainting as i was alone and i had no company and i was so so so so WEAK.

But something made me laughed. A Malay aunty lost her wallet and was complaining to another malay aunty. They were both seating right infront of me. The aunty was saying this " alamak...awak saye hilang wallet saye lah...kalau anak anak saye anak2 yang baik suke kasi saye duit takpe jugak...anak saye yang tinngal dengan saye sekerang anak setan... itu namenye bukan anak itu PONTIANAK!!!!!!" OMG OMG OMG when i heard the aunty complaining this to teh another aunty, i was laughing n i cld not stop laughing..i find it so hilarious!:)

THE BEST PART-

I walked out of the polyclinic and took the lift down and went to the busstop. I was trying so hard to contact my bf. he was uncontactable n i never heard from you him 11am in the morning today. I then called up his friends asking if they are in the gym with my Bf because i knew that my bf went to the gym but the thing, i didnot know which gym he was going to. either chua chu kang or clementi. I wanted him to come n visit me but i wasnt sure yet as to what time he will be able to meet me. HE did not msg nor did he call. THE BEST PART WAS, While i was on the phone talking to my bf's friend,asking him whether is my bf with him or not, i turned back my head and to my surprised i saw my BF coming towards the busstop! i was so so so so so happy that i did not know what to say. I felt like it was fated somehow...i felt like THIS was the reason why i was held up so long in the clinic. maybe because GOD wanted to let us meet coincidentally! how grateful isnt it?:) later i hugged him and thats when i realised that he was actually form clementi gym:)

ABDUL RAHMAN, I LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!:) MWAHMWAHMWAH!

LOVES,

Nadiah

God bless you all:)

updates updates!

2009-01-06T08:23:00.000-08:00

Hello toodles all!:)

Anyway, i have been having quite a good time this past few days...today was my third day of work and it went quite well...ok actually i cant wait to announce this to all of you...

here it goes...

"NADIAH WAS WALKING AT A BUSSTOP WITH HER BF WHEN SHE SAW HER SISTER's FRIEND ON HER LEFT...SHE LOOKED BACK AND WAVED AT HER WITHOUT REALISING THAT THERES A POLE INFRONT OF HEr on her right...SHE WAS SO SMART THAT SHE HIT HERSELF ON THE POLE RIGHT ON HER HEAD INFRONT OF SO MANY PEOPLe...NADIAH CRIED N BF HUGGED HER...BUT NADIAH LAUGHED SO HARD BECAUSE SHE THOUGHT THAT IT WAS SO HILARIOUS!"

this happened to me just yesterday...and my bf was also laughing at me at one point because i was also laughing so it wasnt that bad..haha but whenever i cum to think of it, it will never fail to make me laugh because it was sO UN GLAM!:) and this is the first time this happened to her:) hahahah!

All in all, today after work i went to meet baby for a while at yew tee..he was with danial and so i took a bus form eunos right down to woodlands MRT n then to YEW tee:) i was actually very tired but wheneveri see my baby's face, he will never fail to lift up my spirit!:) im so loving him:)

i want to sleep.so tired AND I KEP YAWNING AT WORK! not good-

loves

nadiah:)

IV got a job:)

2009-01-02T07:12:00.000-08:00

Toodles everyone!

Well guess what? IM EMPLOYED AGAIN! hah:) and all thanks to my dearest Siti Shafariaton who told me about this job and she was the one who recommended me to this job..im now working part time at this japanese shop called Tatami Shop:) a japanese furnishing shop. Basically my job scope is advertising and designing! i hope it will be fun:)

Anyway, i woke up very early today at 8am and i went to meet siti to go for my job interview..the tatami shop i was telling you guys above. The boss was absolutely very friendly and i enjoyed talking to him. He did not make me feel intimidated infact he was very welcoming and he makes me feel as though iv known him for long. His an Indian man btw:) haha! and for your info im starting work TMR! its quite far but come to think of it, its nothing compared to travelling all the way to airport when i was working last few months with shang ri la:)

Moving on, after the interview, i went to meet sweetheart at chua chu kang MRt last cabin and HE WAS LATE. hahahah sometimes i wish i can bite his head off!:) he then waited for me while i get my htings ready to go for gym. We headed to the gym at clementi and i really trained hard in there working and focusing on my arm:) i just want to make it FIRM!!!! haha so baby was doing his thang while i do mine. However, he never fails to disturb me whenever he sees my CRAM FACE. haha! you get what i mean? like when you are carrying weight then your face writes "AKU TAK TAHAN LAGI!!!!" hahaaha ...so after gym we went to our normal makan place at clementi. We met with Sameera's mum. We both have had a great time together today and we laughed a lot!

PS: im so looking forward for tmr and i guess i better go to bed now eh?hehe

have a great year everyone:)

Loves

nadiah-

I know you are trying..

2009-01-01T09:02:00.000-08:00

IM Hurt.

Im dIssapointed.

I have not given up on you n too bad, im still going to worry.

hurt
nadiah

Lovely lovely lovely you:)

2009-01-01T07:21:00.000-08:00

Somtimes when i feel so down and mad about things which i cant solve, i tend to look back on those great memories that we have and it will never fail to make me feel how lucky n grateful i am to have fallen in love with you...:)

"When you pull me in so close,and you gently kiss my lips i look deep into your eyes,and i see everything in you.when you say nothing at all,and you talk to me with your touch,i feel the things you cannot say,and my everything is you. When you and i start to fight,and we say things we don't mean,i take a step back to see that everything's in you..."

PS: i have found my treasure,have you got yours?

loves

Nadiah

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL:)

2009-01-01T03:37:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU LOVELY PEOPLE!!!!

Wow, its been a year and everything had went throught quite smoothly..though some things did not go the way i wanted to. I mean yeah its life right? sometimes you feel so happy like the happiest person in the world and then the next moment you can be so miserable you feel like ending your own life! haha.

Any new resolutuion? Well....i DO have one for this year and that is,

TO START SAVING MY MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!.

Ok frankly, iv been telling this to myself over and over the years, again and again. But sumhow, it does not seem to work. I don't know if its Me or If its just Me. hahaha oklame. But anyway, im really hoping to save money this year from wherever im earning from. Just to let you guys know, its been so hard for me to save. Everytime i say i want to save, and when i see nice clothe or bohemian stuffs especially, i will want to get it! SO HOW SIA!???? dman it...

Sometimes i wish theres someone to control me. But even my mom cant do it! Yeah she will do all the nagging n scolding when she see me buying so many things too often, but at the end of the day, i still got it. There was quite a number of times i was quite scared that my mum would shout at me again..i hid the things that i bought in my beg n sneak it in into my wardrobe! anyone doing the same thing as me? hahahah. well yeah i guess thats what i have been doing for the past few years! hahahah n untill today she sometime doesnt know and when she finds out, i will just say " I BOUGHT THAT A LONG TIME AGO LAH Mum" hah!

Anyway, i just hope that i will be able to save really..GdnEss. and my another hope is, i hope that my relationship with my lovely sweetheart will be as great as it has always been:)

PS: I LOVE YOU MY LOVE:)

Ok till here evryone, may you guys have a great time this week! OH shit. School is starting very soon for me haiya! hah:)

Loves

nadiah-

I miss so many things and people..

2008-12-29T02:12:00.000-08:00

Sometimes when you wake up, you just feel so down because you miss so many things and you wish to see them or do it right at that very moment! :( u get what i mean?

I guess im suffering from it now...im just going to write down the things im really missing now...like now now now now now!!!

I miss my late father:( so badly..i wish to dream of him everyday.
I ALWAYS MISS MY BF eventhough if i just meet him, the next moment when he leaves and out of my sight, that moment i already miss him.haha crazy i know...but sorry cuz im crazily in love with him.:)
I miss my childhood friend come like sister, natasha riyad ridzuan! damn babe i cant wait to see you back here in Singapore and promise me you must date me out. and i promise to visit you in Dubai.I will someday..:) A promise is a promise:)
I miss my twin sister syirah...somehow i know she is busy out there but i do hope she knows that i miss her a lot
i miss my pretty gf Shasha Arwen..babe, i know we have been wanting to go out but we never had a chance to:( soon ok dear:)
i miss my airport friends ayuni, sheedah,afiq suzette
i miss eating lasagnia...baby bring me to pizza soon please:)
i miss my secondary school days
i miss my maths teacher mdm aliza
i miss my student councillor days
i miss my producers n directors in mediacorp i want to see them
i miss doing stupid things
i miss laughing out so loud that i cry
i miss being slap. hahaha.long time eversince i feel that pain!:) anyone wants to slap me? hahaha!
i miss going out and hanging out with hafiz and clan my bestbuddy.
i miss my mum's cook pizza.
i miss painting
i miss my fcuking long hair
i miss my red heels which got stolen many months ago
i miss going out with lala dinah masturah n saleha

AlL in all...sumtimes i wish i have the power to let all this happen at once! GOSH!

if you guys read this...i just wnat to say, i want to see all of you very soon:(

loves n hugs n kisses

nadiah

starts back at one-

2008-12-28T06:08:00.000-08:00

Just a simple shout out to you.....YOU ARE THE BEST! HAHA :) I LOVE YOU RAHMAN!:)

It feels quite weird somehow that im seating here right again infront of the computer and typing somthing in this blog. I now its been way too long eversince i last posted somehting up here. And that was way back in june...mwahha!

Anyway people, im going to start back with my blog. Hoping that i will never have to stop blogging AGAIN. Ok its enough talking about this. Lets move on shall we? and i think i should start by updating you guys about myself!

Firstly, im currently having my school holidays now and school will presume back on the 12 of January. Talking about school, iv got my results for the semester! not too bad i must say...got 5As,2Bs and 2Cs and one incomplete.INCOMPLETE!? yeah i know haha..well thats for some inhouse production thing which i myself don't knwo why i got incomplete when i actually had done some inhouse production with NAFA. Well, maybe Some is just not enough. i dont know. Anyway,im glad that i did well for the rest..i already expected to get C for MR MOON's paper. its not surprising. However, i know i could have done better. perhgaps try harder for next semester! Besides school, i went for this interview at an Arts company called mastereign. A place where they hire people to teach secondary and primary kids and conduct a workshop for them. Theres many options for me to choose. Drama, Fine Arts, Digital media dance blablabla....and i guess i was just interested in the Drama and Fine Arts. The interview went ok i think. Showed them my portfolio and some certificates. However, since im still taking my Diploma in Theatre, they will only be able to hire me as a Teacher assistant which i think its really good anough for me to agin some experience...Seriously, i cant seem to fit myself in doing other jobs like admin work or sales. Something about me is just so so stubborn that i cant seem to do something thats got nothing to do with Arts. Be it Acting or singing or dancing or painting. Since i also see myself in this industry in the future, i think its crucial for me to gain a lot of experience now and not to waste time on doing other jobs which may not help me so much in this Art field..

Ok moving on and the next interesting part im going to talk SO MUCH ABOUT has to be about my lovely bf:)

PART ONE-

We both are doing really really good! though at times we do fight but the thing about us is that we reconcile very fast and i think that its very important in a relationship. Do not ever delay ur so called fights or its just going to get worst. We both have egos sometimes.:) who doesnt? but we always come to a point where we feel that no matter who is in the wrong, one just has to say sorry even though he or she is not at fault. you get what i mean? give and take. or rather sacrifice? haha! we just celebrated our ONE YEAR on the 17 November 2008 and this upcoming 17 January is our ONE YEAR 2 MONTHS and its MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!hahaha. Time passes so damn fast that i can still remember how i started knowing him...how i first bumped onto him at Jurung Point...how we started msging and all...

MY Bf WAS an arrogant guy when i first saw him in the Shopping Center. Ok just to let you guys know, he was my PRIMARY SCHOOL MATE. We did not talk so much back then and the funniest part was, i was attached to his TWIN BROTHER AHMAD when i was in PRIMARY 5. yeah stupid puppy love and those lame days...to think of it really makes me laugh..

SO when i saw my bf in shopping center, we did not talk at all. i just stared at him and i did not even smile...hesaid i was an arrogant bitch too! hahah. the thing is, i find him really cute n handsome when i first met him but i was just quite shy and so i did not talk to him. And i wasnt that sure if he still could remember me thats why... cuz i was a fat little girl back those primary school days! LAUGHS!...ok so moving on, i got his number when i met his twin brother during hari raya last year. I pretended as though i wanted to wish my bf gdluck for his O level BUT theres was ACTUALLY ANOTHER INTENTION behind those lines. hahaha! i just wanted to get to know him better again...funnyisnt it how a girl can be so daring to get to knwo a guy? i knwo i sounded so shamless but i just did not care what he will think of me cuz what i know i just wanted to be friends with him:) but somehow this little friendship turned out to be a beautiful word called LOVE:) I LOVE ABDUL RAHMAN BINTE MAHMOUD ASA! haha...

SO yeah we started to go to the library to study together...and im just glad that he too is taking O level Art. So ART is like a topic for us to talk about everytime...haha! but IM BETTER THAN HIM WOOOHOOO! but sadly he is way much better than me in matematics and science.:) gd for him lah! haha..so now we are together and i hope to be in this relationship for as long as i can and also i wish to take a step further if things are meant to be in like 5 years time? engage or something we will see how:)

We are getting way much closer then before..going to the gym together now and we always enjoy each other's company..My lovelyBf is getting muscular and well build day by day haha! just make sure he doesnt turn out to be like those body builder. i dun like it being that big. haha! looks like EGGS cuming out from their body sia.hahah! anyway, i just hope that we will turn out well at the end of the day:) Loving him more each and evryday:)

Bf has school tmr...and i hope that he is ready:) ARE YOU BABY? haha i hope so you are...remember huh...must work hard again!:)

I LOVE YOU my only one:)

LETS TALK ABOUT TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I woke up very early in teh morning because i had to attend to my cousin's wedding at tampiness. yes that far. And guess what!? when im there my mensors cram came and its just not the day to be suffering from cram!!!!!!! why because im wearing a kebaya made of silk and if anything happens then im so dead-

we headed on to the girls side at bukit panjang and omg i could not controtl the pain i had to go home..sadly i wasnt able to control the pain that i even had to cry at the wedding place itself when the attack came! gdness i think mensors cram is teh worst cram ever~! so when i went back home alone by taxi while mum and the rest stayed there.. when i was in the taxi, the taxi driver heard me. I was like trying to fight the pain an di was like making weird sounds! and the uncle was like.." girl! you ok or not? you in pain huh!? i was liek ya uncle drive faster! he said aiyuo okok.....errrrrr her her iv got some oil! rub lah hor!?" somehow i find him so kind so that makes me want to look at his name..and his name is LIM YIT KUAN.:) hahaha! i will remember this name for the rest of my life.SERIOULSY:)

when i reached home, i slept and rested and when i woke up at 7pm...i was better:) much better..called baby and i was very very very happy to hear his voice!:)

Ok i guess thats enough for today...wondering whats in store for me tmr:)

PS: i want to eat pizza-

loves

nadiah

ITS BEEEN SO LONG LAH!

2008-12-25T23:53:00.000-08:00

!IM BACK fellow mates!

I Will update my blog damn soon ok i promise:) upon request of so many i guess i should start all over again back to square one:)

you know, sometimes you just dont feel like writing anything? sometimes you are just simply lazy to type and update urself about things thats been happening? hahaha! yeah that was what happened to me eversince i entered School! NAFA that is... oh ya talking about school, im currently having my School holidays now and will presume on the 12 of January...and 5 days later,17 january, i will turn NINETEEN!!!!! aiyo nadiah is getting older already!

I really got to go now. But i promise to update tonight again about everything!!!!!!!!!!! :)

I MISS blogging sumhow- hahahaha!

LOves

nadiah-

ATLAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-06-23T04:32:00.000-07:00

21 of june.....

FINALLY! after so many months we all waited, the day had finally ended. MY DAD's OFFICIAL ART GALLERY OPENING was held yesterday at malaysia, Malacca..it was such an august event that i myself did not expect that many people would turn up.. my dad's close friends were there too..M nasir and Ramli Sarip..They were school mates in nanyang academy of fine arts:) Ramli Sarip sang and he brought me to tears..he sang the song "bukan kerana nama" and it really was very touching and it brought back memories between me and my dad. M nasir the handsome one! HAHA! was there too:) oh ya not to forget, my long distant cousin taufik batisah was there as well to celebrate with us tOgether the wonderful and MEANINGFUL EVENT...:) Theres really too many for me to tell... however i willbe putting up the pictures very very soon!!!!! tilllater!MWAHMWAH!

loves,
Nadiah-

What Should be done and what Not to?

2008-06-08T16:53:00.000-07:00

42 DAYS LEFT.................COUNTING DOWN...

Somehow, to think of the fact that i will be going to school very very soon gives me butterflies in my stomach..its not that i don't want to go..infact im pretty excited about it. except theres just one thing that seems to always bother me and thats the hectic schedule which im so not ready to face it all over again...somehow, im really enjoying the life that im having now. With wonderful workmates..many great people all around..its just so great and i don't quite like the idea that soon, i won't be able to have all these great things anymore! :( btw everyone..im heading for school on the 21st of july. Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts and will be taking my diploma in Theatre:) i know Theatre..tell me about it..:) haha!...i aint sure if i should be continuing working as a part time labour or not because i know that its a great opportunity working with shangri la hotel.

However,im seriously just afraid that i may not be able to concentrate if ever i have to work and school at the same time..WORST, theatre courses are pretty stressful due to extra training and perhaps acting class- i do not know...I really do not know what to do now and i cant believe that im not doing anything to make things better. Instead, im just staring at empty walls, waiting for time to pass and hoping for the better. What the f**K-

*HOPELESS SHIT*

Anyway heres a Short shout out to whom i WANT TO MEET!!!!! I MISS these People..

IN RANDOM ORDER OK...hahahah

1) MY BELOVED Rahman :)

2) MY Super Hawt girlfriend sweetheart ArWen..

3) Zul the Apek!!

4)My Maths teacher MS delia Toh!

5)MY Secondary school Classmates!

6) MY DANCE MATES! SHIT I MISS DANCIng-

7) MY TWO bestfriends, Hidayah and Syafiqah..

" ALL i hope is to meet these people very sooonnnnn...Hopefully:)"

LOVES,

Nadiah-

I MISS SCHOOL DAES:( EVERTHING!

2008-05-25T10:28:00.000-07:00

BELOVED SEC 5N2:)
When she gets into action Simply innocent,chubby cheeks in sec 5:)

When Dance PErformance are all that matters:)

*I miss the School PArade Square*
during PE

THAT ART FILE I ALWAYS BRING TO SCHOOL:)

This SMILE WAS AFTER O LEVEL MATHS WAS OVER:) WAKAKAKA!

When Dancemates are Together,we just knwo what to do:)

Being a School COuncillor Was Truly Amazing:) haha!

Rae, ME, Mel n Jing ying!

BOTTOM LINE-

"-I MISS SCHOOL DAES-"

~CHECK this out...IM sorry if ur irritated by our insanity...TRY this. ITS SUPER FUN:)

LOVES,NADIAH:)

INSANITy-

2008-05-25T09:41:00.000-07:00

Because every moment i have with eu, is the moment i treasure:)

Taken at AYAM PENYET SHOP!

@ stupid toilet where i lost my hp:(

When it Feels So PErfect!:)

Step Sweet! hahha!

DAMN EU I LOVE THIS PIC! :)

Cuz you Excite my senses:)

Muke MAintain!!!!!!

EMO!!!! :) hahaha!

1...2....3...i Love eu:)

BORED equals to crazy.haha!

SUch a blast dae i had with eu:)

ITS HERWORLD-

WANNA SEE SOME CRAZY VIDEOS? hahaha! watch me and ayuni down here..Dancing at work:) haha

I guess we both were suPer bored as there was no more work! but the moment was great:) had lotsa fun!

LOTSA LOVES,

NADIAH:)

-ITS EASIER said then Done-

2008-05-25T09:12:00.001-07:00

-UGLY THOUGHTs-

Well, its the 24 of may last night and it was my Late father's Birthday. I am still able to recall how he smiled at that very day,24 of may 2007. We headed to Bali thai for his birthday and everyone was smiling widely..but yesterday, the house was in total silence,such awkward serenity i never felt before on this date. There was no one at home as mum and the rest headed to Mallaca for my dad's upcoming art exhibiton opening.. I was all alone at home after waking up and this emptiness i felt inside when i woke up was so strong that i wished i had not been in that situation. I felt deeply hopeless. Knowing that i can never get to see him ever again..and nor can i see him smile again on that very date. I tried to forget but i just cant..Its so impactful that everything little i do that connects myself to my dad, it can really really really make me feel so super down..just like how i felt early morning yesterday. :( i guess its really true...its easier said then done. i heard people said.." be strong..carry on...move on..." YES I AM MOVING ON but....its not the same.. and its really hard to TRY to forget when you actually really cant.. noone can actually understand how it feels.. Emotions strikes more upon realising that this coming 31st of may is my Late father's ONE YEAR. time passes MADLY fast that it makes me feel as though it just happened yesterday. Its still so fresh here in my mind and i want it to fade..cuz deep within its really hurting me sumhow. Yes i may look happy and all bubbly but to come to think about it, THIS CAN MAKE ME HOPELESS LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT. TRULY MADLY DEEPLY

THE HAPPY PART-

Well, i did not want to dwell on this thing so much so i decided to GET A LIFE.

Met my Sweetheart and we had food at lucky plaza..:) truly had great time with you dearest:)

" Thanks to you for making me happy when i was somehow rather down.and im sorry for disturbing you nonstop:) I ENJOY doing that.haha! and thanks to you, MY BLUE BLACK GREW BIGGER! urrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhh! eu WATCH OUT:)"

Well, it was just a short outing as he had to head on for work..i sent him off and was all alone again. HAHA! but it was alright..went straight home and rested at home and did some house chores before mum gets back from MSIA..

I Hearts YOu :)

LOVES,

NADIAH-

been too long...

2008-05-10T07:42:00.000-07:00

ITS BEEN TOO LONG....hahah!

Its been toooo lllloooonnnggg since i last updated my blog untill todae when darling arwen told me too, then i remembered that i have a blog:) HOW BAD IS THAT? well simply because i have been really really busy with work and when off dae arrives, i won't be at home. I will take that opportunity to go out and enjoy and have fun or perhaps spend time with family or either with bie or with friends. I havent been checking my mails that often as well cuz there is really no tiem or sumtyms im lazy myself. I used to be a freak last time..seating hours infront of the computer and doing everything..to pictures to blogging to updating profile to surfing youtube. NOW NO MORe- not much time for that cuz by the time i reach home from work, i will end up be very super tired and BED her i cum:) haha!

Ok basically this whole week have been quite an alright week.haha!

had fun last night with bie:)

He fetched me after work at airport and i was very happy to meet him:) we headed on to arab street to get his necklace that he wanted to buy, that bohemian pandon thing which suits him really well:) haha! theres a lot more places for us to explore but time just didnt allow us to. The day passes so fast that i wished it would have been longer..We went to AMIRAH"S GRILL restaurant for dinner and there we started to have lotsa fun n laughter! YAE:) i was having a bad sore throat and flu though...haha! n sadly i cld not taste the hibiscus drink that bie claimed it was really nice.The stupid flu n block nose of mine causes me to loose my taste buds.LOL:) We bought Two necklace. Not those silver white gold thing ok please.haha! its those artistic carft wooden pandon that we bought n it was really nice:) Bie wore this hat and he damn looked like a tourist really..haha! i just love the way he dress last night:) ITS UNIQUE YET, ITS SO MY TASTE! haha!:) ok i think thats all for now that i can say...hehe....till later everyone!

BTW, I GOT INTO NAFA!:)

loves,
nadiah-

Everything is fallin into place:)

2008-04-14T05:46:00.000-07:00

Everything seems to be falling into place for me nowadays, nothing bad really happen and its actually quite a gd week for me and im glad and really appreciate the fact that nothing bad is going on.Im actually now at work and very teh relax man.. i have nothing to do as flight is coming in later at about 9plusPM..Anyway, im anxiously wiating for my NAFA results which will be most likely coming out at baout late april or early may. I do not know but they did told us that it will take one month before they announce the result via email or post.

HAPPIEST MOMENT OF THE WEEK~

GUESS WHAT!!!???? after SOOO LOOONNNGGGGg i have been craving for cheese prata with BANANA and HONEY, ATLAST...i managed to eat it with my dearest hun!!:) and im so happy seriously. We both did had lotsa fun eating those pratas at west cost park.oh my goodness and im all so disorganize. oh yeah thats what he always calls me anyway, DISORGANIZE-sucker.haha! we bought like SEVEN pratas for just TWO of us. We had seafood prata and errr....my fav banana with chesse and he had cheese with egg..two of them!..hell yeah we had so much fun eating and savouring those pratas together. so the romantic ok eating PRATA under the dark skies with moon.wakkka! how cute i find that~

Moving on, we then stayed at west cost park a lil longer just to chat and joke around..and laughed laughed laughed like noone bussiness.:) it was one memorable day and i thank you for spending the time with me! MWAH!

WORK WORK WORK WORK~

Ok, i have been busy working nowadaes and you guys can seldom see me online anymore..only sometimes when i have the time then i will be bothered to be online..if not, i will be sleeping at home resting as arrival at airport has been realy high nowadaes and im often running around and i will be tired by teh time i get back home.:(..i must admit that doing this job is superbly cool.

I meet up with alot of ministers, colonels from USA army pacific, SOPHIA LAUREN! the ITALIAN ACTRESS~ hell yeah im proud to say that i met up with her and managed to shake her hand. Damn how coolio is that! hah! she is freaking 75 year Old but oh my god, she looks like late 40s?

ok thats all that i can update you guys for now! will meet again haha:)

SHOUT OUT!!!!

IM MISSING ARWEN DARLING NOW!!!!

LOTSA LOVES

NADIAH-

well well well.......

2008-04-10T09:14:00.000-07:00

~MEMORIES STRIKES AGAIN~

I finally have the time to blog again. I just felt that nowadaes, i don't have enough time to even seat and be infront of the computer when im at home..i used to do that everydae before i started working..but now all have changed.

Anyway, i had a freaking bad bad bad bad bad day today at work. First, i WAS LATE FOR WORK and i had to put on my make up in the taxi and also i had to do my hair in there. It was such a hell of an experience! the taxi driver was driving fast and it was very bumpy and i really had difficulties putting on my make up and do a french twist on my hair.. I was supposed to meet up with an early arrival VIP guest but i missed the flight and i was drop dead panic..At that particular moment, hwo i wish i could fly form terminal 1 to terminal 3! because teh flight that i was supposed to attend to was at terminal 3:( i was really stressed out as i was alone in the morning shift and im expected to meet with every guest. The worst part was when the hotel called me up and told me that im supposed to meet up with all the guest. EXCUSE ME? i only have ONE pair of legs and HAND so i cant handle 4 Flights at one time..not only that, i was also so tensed up because i think i have not been getting enough of sleep. Been doing morning shifts and had early flight the day before and i really could not sleep. I think im suffering from insomnia. i think.i dunt know-

Next, i have been thinking so much about my late father lately, i truely deeply miss him and i just don't know how to get this out of my chest. This unsatisfying feeling and the huge desire to meet him so badly really hurts me deep down inside:(..because i know, that i cannot meet him and see him once again,unless ofcuz when it cums to "THE END OF THE WORLD" then probably i can see him once again..but still, its totally different. I really want to see him so badly..till today, i can still remember how he left us all, how he left my family, what he did,what he said, what he advised,what he always love to do,how he always jokes around..how i always had to act with him for special projects..oh god, im missing all these so much now and it deeply hurts. it hurts more than anything! im so down now while typing this down but i cant help it but to let it out :(

MY DAD WAS THE

GREATEST,FANTASTIC,UNIQUE,TALENTED,INSPIRATIONAL FATHER EVER ALIVE!

im so blessed to have him as my father and i wish i could tell him now, how much iv missed him~

~YOU'RE MY HERO, and will always be~

PS: To my sweetheart Abdul Rahman, I MISS EU bie~

Loves,

Nadiah

HEY EU!:)

2008-03-31T09:35:00.001-07:00

BIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII MMMMMIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSS

YYYYYYYYYYOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

ALreAdy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE COMFORT :)

Te Ar MO sweetheart :)

Nadiah-

Audition was awesome:)

2008-03-28T22:32:00.000-07:00

ITS TIME TO UPDATE! :)

I went for my NAFA theatre audition on the 22nd of march and hell yeah i did awesomely great. im serious. even the judge stood up and clapped for me and said he was impressed! :)

As much as im trying to not be too over confident that i will be getting into this school, sumhow..i just think i will make it. I had to read to them a poem, act a skit as well as sing.

Here is the poem that i read to them, trust me i read it with full of emotion and expressions..haha! so here you go people..the title is CONFUSED :

Confused by

Jennifer Wooters

Some days you seem so close

Like you stand right before me

But then the next day you seem so far

like each other we can't see,

Each day is like a roller coasterwith my stomach turning upside down

You stand there looking but yet you don't utter a sound,

I feel so confused and my heart is being torn at its seams

And every night that I sleep you seem to linger in my dreams,

Every time I look at you I forget all my thoughts

And right then and thereit's you that my heart has sought,

Every time I hope it turns into something bad

So for right now I'll stop thinking

And maybe things won't end up sad.

I read this poem to them and i could really feel how the poet feels..i imagined myself reading it and saying it to my late father. That was how i managed to nail it down.:)

And as for the Skit part...i guess i was way too emotional that i seriously did cry on that part. i LITERALLY CRIED infront of the judges while i was putting up that skit. Its about my mum who had left me 12 years ago and suddenly she pops up right infront of my door and seeking for forgiveness..i expressed to my "mum" how much i had suffered all my life..and i told her how much i hated her for leaving me all alone in darkness and fears. Oh ya..i said this too "mum, do you know how it feels like when i see all my schoolmates, their mum kissing them off gdbye to school and walk with them to the gate?, i had nobody mum..nobody...i was all alone mum and did you really care? i don't think so mum..i don't even know if the word LOVE existed in your dictionary mum"

While i was saying that part, that was the time when i cried. Tears started rolling down my cheeks during the audition and after that, the judge stood up and clapped n said im impressed,well done:)

Ok moving on, after that i had to sing and so i sang my all time favourite song.. FLY ME TO THE MOON..it was ok everything went well:)

Ok enough of audition! haha!

anyway, yesterday i went for tanglin sec achievers day. haha! i got an award for top in malay and art n design. FIRST TIME in my life i got FIRST for MALAY. Never thought im quite good at it though..wahahah! For Art..oh wells..expected lah:) so after that me hairi aidil n my lil bro plus sufri headed on to makan opp tanglin sec, It was really fun. We took pictures and me n hairi was really crazy..we pretended to be drunk n took the pics together! n my face..freaking HORRIBLE!

Ok i beter get going now and do the house chores!

AND OH GOSH..just a shout out: "NADIAH MISSES HER CHARMING PRINCE"

LOTSA LOVE,NADIAH-

ITS PHOTOS time again! :)

2008-03-28T09:26:00.000-07:00

Myself, Deela, Waty n Arwen :)

During Hyrul's High tea:)

WEEEEEEEEEE~!~

2008-03-18T11:19:00.000-07:00

Nothing much lah.............

Todae, nothing much happen...i had to go to work todae for the midnyt shift. 5pm to 1am...IM EXTRA DELIGHTED today because hun send me off to work! LOL...i forced him too.hehe...he initially was supposed to go to boon keng to meet his manager but i purposely forced him to accompany me to airport! HAHA! such a bad girl i was todae:) BUT hey, i bet he did enjoy the trip back from airport to boonkeng.LOL.MWAH!

OMG...not to forget, I ATE A LOT!!!!!! OH GOD! i had somuch food n fruits today at work! ok my job is really relaxing when there is no flight to attend to. i can be really busy busy busy but at the same time, i can be like the most free person on earth! HAHA!:) FUN AYE?

ok till here...now already 4am n i better sleep! NYT!

MWAH!
nadiah-

WELCOME BACK!:)

2008-03-17T11:51:00.000-07:00

!NADIAH IS BACK ALL!

Ok, first and forall i just want to say soory to all you readers who have been waiting for me to update my pathetic lil blog down here:) iv finally made the decision to sit down here n type down everything that you guys have been missing out about my life...its going to be a little bit long cuz its been ages since i last updated this blog so now iv got so much to type about. haha! so its UP TO YOU PEOPLE, if eu want to read or not..if not..just feel free to press the cancel button n BUZZ OFF! hahahha!

Here it goes....Im now currently working with SHANGRI LA hotel but im attached to the airport as airport concierge under the hotel. Im on a 3 months probationary n for now, im doing quite well. With the help of hairi( my trainer),i was able to cope with work easily since now rasheda( acting supervisor) is on leave. Its been a week now that im working..im posted at Changi Airport terminal 2 just opposite belt 31! so..if you guys happen to be at the airport at the arrival hall, do feel free to drop by ok n say HI! sure help to make my dae:)

Ok, you guys must be wondering hows my school coming along n where am i posted to. Ok i have already registered myself in NANYANG ACADEMY OF FINE ARTS( NAFA) n i will be going for my Audition this coming Saturday. i managed to ask for an OFF. THANK GOD. ok im pretty nervous now about the audition as i have not get myself prepared for it. I have to basically read to them a poem of MY CHOICE with full expressions n if need, body movements. Secondly, i will have to act to them a certain character. EX: a drunkard women or a petrified woman. Next part of the audition is, i will have to sing..till today, im deciding as to what song i should be singing. Im thinking maybe i should sing FLY me to the moon or Bubbly or something else. GIVE ME IDEAS what to sing ok people!!:) for ur info people, im taking DIPLOMA IN THEATRE.ok please do wish me gd luck ok for my audition! n i will sure update you people how it come about later on:)

next update has to be about HUN:) we both are doing GREAT! as per normal..just that nowadaes we have not got the chance to meet as both are busy with work. To think about the fact that he will be very busy with school anytime soon..im kinda afraid if anytyn will go wrong between us later on. I dunt know..im just holding on to this faith n hope that i have in this n hoping that nutyn will change:)

Hun will be schooling at Singapore Poly and taking Bio Electronics.( SCIENCE FREAK!!!!WAHAHA) i guess later on both of us will be very very very busy but i sure do hope that we wun neglect what we are having now...ur missed.truly missed:(

ok moving on to another topic. FOODS!!!! WAH DAMN! i have been eating eating n eating nowadaes at work! i never thought that airport food can be really sumptous n superbly nice n affordable too! WOW...the canteen they have seellllllinggg DOZENS N DOZENS of varieties..thers PRATA! my all time fav:) HAHA.. oh ya n just right infornt of my counter theres SWENSONS. n im a big fan of the desert ok...oh gosh just hope that i wun be FAT CUMING TO AIRPORT! GDNESS!.. my weight now is 53 n height is 1.66! i better not be more then that ok! LOL!:) i must admit that ido enjoy working here...its not that stressful FOR NOW:) haha!

Ok i think thats about it. i try not o NEGLECT MY BLOG ANYMORE OK!

oh ya...my working shifts: 7AM to 3pm, 3pm to 11pm,or 5 pm to 1Am. but it can never end on time! haha! n ya its been three daes ina row i had to do the midnyt shift n WOW THANK GOD taxi fare the hotel pay for us ok..if not IM DEAD $40.50 from airport to my house plus plus midnyt charge n the 3 dollars extra! hahah! CRAZINESS:)

Till here, LOVES

NADIAH-

2008-03-03T19:06:00.000-08:00

!ITS PHOTO TIME EVERYONE!

Im just so sorry, i have not been blogging for quite sometime..simply because i just dun feel like it. i just dunt know why...Anyway, here are a whole lot of pictures for all of eu to see! mainly what i have been doing so far:)

IM MISSING EU so badly now...sumhow, i felt like something is just missing here in my small little heart..why am i always feeling uneasy?

GOSh.

but who cares, i know i love eu:)

NADIAH-

2008-02-29T04:35:00.000-08:00

MAS SELAMAT ESCAPES!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG... to all the people here who drops by at my tag: iv got nutynt o say...but....

PLEASE TAKE GD CARE OF URSELF!:)

LETs hope and pray that god will save us from any harm ok! GOD BLESS!:)

LOVEs

nadiah-

I PROMISE to BLog sumtyn nice real soon:) now im just simply lazy to type.haha

ANOTHER night at FAV spot :)

2008-02-23T19:44:00.000-08:00

!!!NEW FRIENDS ARE LOVES!!!

Yesterday, i had so much great fun with LALA, MASTURA, SALEHA, DINA,HUn, FIrdaus, MIMI, ZUL n ofcourse with myself:)

Those people above are all hun's very close friends and oh god i must say that i truly enjoyed so much! i brought thme to arab street again at that very fav spot of mine. MOSI CAFE:). I went to Raffles City to meet them and they were so late..however, it really pays off cuz at the end of the day, i did not had anything to regret upon. i had so much fun. LAUGH LAUGH N LAUGH. Zul made the whole situation even funnier cuz his always making that stupid face of his. haha! oh ya...to eu ZUL ( "IM ALREADY IMMUNE TO EU DISTURBING ME N CALLING ME BLACK...dah takde pape lah oi! ") haha...im not BLACK at the first place ok.humrp! ur just saying it for fun laughter peace n joy!:) HAHA. And so..i was supposed to meet them at 5.30pm but oh gosh they reached at about 6 plus very close to 7pm.. Lala called me up when she had reached Raffles. DAMN SHES ONE LITTLE CUTE GIRL.a very small size girl, with very pretty cute face, nice skin complextion n very short! very cute!:) she resembles of my another friend, called LEILA :) i guess anyone name starts with L n end with A is meant to be short eh? like LALA n LEILA? :)

LOL

JOKING OK.

okok...so i headed up n guided them to arab street.. n on the way there, we bumped onto MAstura n Saleha..they are LALA's n DINA's classmates. GOsh.eu knw girl thing? when they meet we have to like shout AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG!!! SHRIEK here n there n then we HUG:) haha! that wqs what happened yesterdae. They were so funny. GOsh. Anyway, i totally had so much funw ith the girls last night. They were all so fun n very very very nice people. SEriously. NEVER regretted knowing them:) ALl thanks to hun for introducing me to them:) haha. Its as if iv known them for so long when we just officially met last nyt:) LOL.....after that when we wanted to go back home, the best thing was that, there wasnt any more trains to BoON lay n thank god it was a saturdae, so we took the NR bus. waitiing for it was like waiting for what sia....SO LONG! haha...but ofcuz, it was still worth the wait. :)

Ok thats all for now...i WANT TO WATCH *PS I LOVE EU* EVERYBODY:)

LOVEs

nAdiah-

LOVE SONGS! :)

2008-02-19T20:40:00.000-08:00

~ANDY WILLIAMS~

OMG...everyone, i have been listening to this TWO SONGs by ANDY WILLIAMS title SPEAK SOFTLY LOVE and LOVE STORY( WHERE DO I BEGIN) I suggest you people who loves to listen to LOVE songs, go to YOUTUBE right now and LISTEN! pardon me, but iv been listening to that two songs for MORE DEN 20 TIMES A DAE.i SWEAR i repeated it again n again...its really really really nice...though its a little oldies, its truly meaningful n deep :) such a beautiful piece:) - DUN WASTE TIME NOw, GO YOU TUBE N LISTEN!

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE

YOU WANT MORE LOVE!?

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!

SORRY, guess im Bored :)

LOTSA LOVEs,

NADiah-

FUN FUN FUN!!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-18T01:06:00.000-08:00

!KAZUYA, DArling ARWEN n SWeeTheart HUN!

First and forall, im so sorry if i have not been updating my blog. You know, sometimes you just don't feel like typing anything down and updating your blog. I was way too lazy the past few days to update as i was busy..busy busy going out and hanging outw ith friends and loved ones:)

15th february-

Ok, on the 15th of February i went to town to meet up with KAzuya ( a friend from Japan) He landed in Singapore and gave me a call right up.We were suppose to meet at fareast at about 6.30pm but GOd he was so late and i had to wait for him for 45 mins. I somehow realised that my life is all about waiting. and i HATE it. Im always or should i say im normally the punctual one and i have to wait n wait n wait for people. NOt say IM ALWAYS punctual, but mostly. HAHA. So yeah after that we heade on to Fareast and grabbed some food. I ordered the CLaypot rice and it was NOT nice at all and frankly speaking, i did not finish even three quarter..Bumped onto a lot of friends there:) was great though. Ok ok...moving on..After meeting up with Kazuya, met Hun at town and then we went to meet STella ( hun closefriend)..Stella was very cute:) and indeed shes a nice girl.haha! Ok thats the end of DATE 15th OF FEBRUARY.

16th February-

GReat DAY! I went out with DARLING ARWEN! :) OMG...ATLASt we managed to meet up and go out for a date. Its been a long since we always wanted to go out together.. And i was happy that i managed to meet up withher one that day! haha! and oh ya...to ARWEN : " IM sorry for making you WAIT at the Orchard MRT..i promise thats going to be the last time darl" We went to Lucky Plaza to have AYAM PENYET! wah..yummy yummy! it was sumptious. damn nice man:) ryt babe? hahah! and when we were there..ofcuz we had the girl girl talk. hah! we talked a lot i must say.. like she told me stuffs and i told her stuffs. Sumhow, iv found a new sweetheart, and thats her. ARWEN:) We kinda have this chemistry going on and damn its cool! haha! ok not forgetting we went to SWENSON for DESERT! DROP DEAD SUPER DUPER NICE lah the ice cream with MARSHMELLOW!!!!:) GOSH. i want to pamper myself more with that..but thinking about getting FAT, that just SUCKs.HAH..We had to wait for waty( arwen's friend) sow hile waiting, i talked to her about my late father..somehow it felt nice having to express again how i felt that night when i lost my dad..thanks dearie for being a listening ear:)

After that, WE CAMWHORED. how can we not!? haha! oh cummon...NADIAH AND ARWEN.:) how can we not? haha! the day ended off nicely..we both took the train back home with waty and yeah it ended with a flying kiss i got back from her:) WAHAHA!! I cant wiat for thye next outing with her! either to ARab street or to ICE SKATING!!! weee~~

17th February-

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY HUN:)

Ok, on this date..a very special date.. a day that reminds me how we were brought about together..a date that resembles love, patience, faith, happiness and laughter:)

Ok i met hun at MArina and i know he was seriously PISSED because he was there for like one hour plus plus waiting for me and Zul. Though i already told him that im going to be late cuz i had to helped out my mum with my dad's painting, i was still a lil guilty making hun wait. i just need to help my mum with those paitings ASAP. so yeah i had no choice but to meet eu later then expected. IM SORRY Bie.

Met up with hun at Marina Starbucks. We both just walked around..sit,stand, look around just to kill time while waiting for Zul to come. We finally met Zul at the outdoor place and it was so funny..Zul was on the phone with hun and zul was asking for directions when actually we were just behind him and hun actually made Zul to turn one round like an IDIOt. and he did. damn thats hilarious:) haha!

we then moved on to play Pool! haha!...ok i must say that i suck at it but hey, actually i think i kinda improved eversince the first time i played during sec 3! hah!:) playing pool was fun..i always disturb hun knowing that his good at it, and i always try to find any ways to distract him so that he cant score.wAHAH!. BAD Girl.hah! After playing pool we went to have dinner at the marina foodcourt there and omg.my Appetite was sucky. i felt quite sick that night actually but i was trying to fight the pain so that i could enjoy my anniversary date with hun. i bought yong tau fu!? i think dats how eu spell it, i could not finish up the food man. NOt even 3/4 of it. gosh wasted but wat to do...hah

Ok after having dinner, hun brought me to TELOK BLANGAH PARK:) oh boy..that place brought back so much memories. Because before we were together, we wnet to that park once to view the wonderful sceneries and many funny things happened! ONE-it was raining in the middle of the night and i was wearing my heels and i had to take it out to RUN AS FAST AS I COULD down that hill to the roadside. It was so unsightly and its so NOT FEMININE. haha! but yeah i just did it.haha! infront of hun.( BEFORe we were together) and so yeah...continue...after reaching up to that top of the hill, we both were PEnting..i was trying to catch my breath. GOd the stairs so so so so the high OK.

THE BEST PART-

Hun was asking me to move to a brighter place.. and hey guessed wat? we EXCHANGEd the cards we made for each other.:) NOt those normal card made by paper ok. I made him a Styrofoam heart shaped card with many of pur pics pasted ther and at the front, i wrote down E poem i composed for him and definitely i decorated it nicely and im just so glad he loves it :) Hun made me somthing very very special and nice too..he used this big oval shaped wooden bark tree and wrote everything down on it :) that "card" was seriously special.:) and i must say that i truly love it so much and hey i appreciate it OFCOURSE:)..and yeah he told me something that truly touches my heart last nyt..saying sumtyn about the wind connecting to him and passes his misses to me.haiizzz~ damn your just one sweet little angel:).its just so great having two creative people bond together isnt it? LOL. cummon, his into ARTS and SO AM I:) so yea! COOLNESS! ok and after reading those "CARDS" we made for each other..we were just talking and enjoying the breeze..was so so nice. The moments i had with eu was truly amazing:) BIE, if eu happen to read this, " i just want you to know that being with eu have always been Truly awesome. ~ Eu never fail to make me smile, eu never fail to make me laugh. eu never fail to even touch my heart:) You're the Apple of my eyes" :) *LOVES* Till here......

~I have been going out three days in a row and i think im going to be grounded anytime soon if i continue being like this.WAHAH! and so..i think i will just stay at home for the next few daes and just relax.WAIt. i NEED A JOB. ok i will go out FOR GOOD! find JOB bebeh! i need ajob.REAlly. i cant be staying at home everytime and just do nothing. im so Gona get fat if i never do somEthing~

LOTSA LOVES,

NADIAH-

2008-02-16T07:39:00.000-08:00

SORRY,

BeCAUSE..........

IM BORED.................

AND im LAZY

TO BLOG.............

IM WAITING for YOur MSG that NEverCAMe..................................................

IM IN No MoOd NOw.

I want TO Laugh.hahahahahahahaahahha!!!!

LOVE,naDiah-

i MISS dancing~

2008-02-11T21:32:00.000-08:00

~I Hope You Dance~

I woke up one morning and suddenly i was humming the song "i hope you dance" by Lee Ann Womack. Singing this song brings back memories..to those days where Mrs Chng ( dance teacher) oftens nag and nag and nag at us. She used to be one naggy "mother" and she can as ferocious as a lion sometimes. IM NOT KIDDING.

Ok, Somehow, i really really reallly MISS DANCING. i have not been on the dance floor for months i must say. Eversince i graduated from sec school life, life has been pretty busy and i have not been dancing. Im missing those Mr eugene dance class, Mr dandie and also Mr Ferrer. Needless to say, i definitely miss Mrs Chng dance class too:(. I used to remember how often she would scold us if we did not dance properly. I used to remember the MS $22 incident. One of my friend who oftens get scolded by Mrs Chng. FUNNy at times.

Anyway, now i feel like GROOVING aye! and ofcuz not to forget i miss ALL MY DANCE MATES:( ESpecially

NURSYIRAH JUSNI and GERMAINE ( My All time FAV Dance mates, my sweethearts:)

With lotsa Loves

Nadiah-

PISSED PISSED PPISSED!

2008-02-11T07:08:00.000-08:00

BAD LUCK DAY DAMN IT!!

OK im seriously going to type this in all RED just to show how pissed i am with EVERYTHING!

DO you like it being buided?( my language) means..someone call to say " hello there nadiah, im coming down to Singapore this after noon and i will met you around 5pm ok?" BUT end up that person did not turn up!? and WORST, i have already dress up and get myself ready to meet that person ok. I aint going to mention the name. That person could have atleast called me or something right to say he/she cant make it? GOSH.i just hate it being treated this way.
Secondly, how do feel when you wake up early in the morning and THREE BAMBOO sticks drop on top of your head? Pain right? YES that was what happened to me early in the morning today when i wanted to hang the clothes. JUst bad luck lah.
How do you feel when you are in the toilet showering and you slipped and fell just because the bloddy damn soap is on the floor and you stepped on it? YEs, that was what happened to me when i showered today. PAIN again right? THANKS i know.
How do you feel when you starve urself the whole day just because you want to have dinner together with that person coming down from indonesia? and end up he/she never turn up. SUCKS i know.
How do you feel, AFTER BEING SO HUNGRY..and you are craving for a banana cheese prata, and when you went down to eat the indian man said" OH BANANA FINISH" I was Like.. WTF IS WRONG WITH MY DAY TODAE!? seriously, i really feel so hopeless i want to kill myself.
How do you feel when you ordered for mango juice and end up it taste like VINEGAR? already spoilt? yes that was what i got but end up i just finish it cuz i seriously could not be bothered already REALLY MAN.
How do you feel when you asked for Chilli Sauce and it tasted very GAssy? its SERIOUSLY spoilt.very Salty and NOT spicy at all.I just feel like throwing my tantrum at that innocent indian man.
Lastly,( i hope so) how do you feel when you want to develop the pictures at the camera shop and the rude uncle said to eu " aiya..CLose already lah close already! go back go back!" Can i like SPANK HIS FOReHEAD and HIS BOLD HEAD AND SAY TUT YOU LAH ? i Wish i could do that.

Ok This is The end Of my BAD LUCK DAY things that happened tome today on this very stupid day. Can i just have someone to cheer me up? GOD. I just want someone to crack me a joke and let me forget everything that happened. I just want to LAUGH LAUGH AND LAUGH. Is this some kind of RETRIBUTION? wat the heck lah. i dont know. TOday is just NOT MY DAY~

DAMN this dATE.

Nadiah-

wonderful just so wonderful:)

2008-02-11T02:35:00.000-08:00

HE said i was a NOTTY GIRL! hahaha

ur just adorable:)

!!NIGHT AT ARAB STREET!!!

Ok, somehow ARABstreet is just a place i call LOVE:) i have been spending most of my weekdays or weekends there at arab street just simply RELAXING n drinking my vanila smoothie. The place called MUSC CAFE. A place where i can really lepak lah with anyone anytime. But, i always go there with hun and its already uncountable how many times we went there. the plca just so nice.Cozy wooooo i loike!

Anyway both me and hun have decided not to continue with the one month apart thinging. I simply cant afford to do that n so does he i think? haha!

i just cant easy to say:)

Above are some of the pictures taken~ enjoy ok:)

LOVES

NAdiah-

Getting better i guess?

2008-02-09T20:27:00.000-08:00

-LOST FOR WORDS-

Well, i just got back from Malacca and things went pretty fine. My dad's late gallery is almost done:) except the road part to the entrance. Well, if only my dad were here..im sure he will be very happy to see his own gallery being build up so nicely.sobs~

Anyway, i still have not make up my miund whether to stuyd in Msia or Spore. The thing is, i don't even see the reason why i should be rushing myself to study there when i might still have time to stuydy there after my diploma here in Spore. Wouldn't it be more well recognised? GAWD.i just don't know. Thinkng about thsi really SUCKS BIG TIME. Im Serious. i cant afford to waste much time but in other words im here right now wasting my time. Days passes by yet i have not make up my decision yet.:(. being in Malacca was way way fun fun fun..though i miss hun, my couzzins there made my day!:)

BElieve it or not, i wore pyjamas and with no slippers to go town in MALLACA. im DROP DEAD serious. i walked around there at night with all my cousins and sisters and uncle and aunty in that kind of dressing.Well, you must be thinking that im nuts for godsake. But NO. thats because everything was so in a rush and i did not even know that my uncle wanted to bring us to town and walked around there. so i hop up in the car..and i tot he was just goin to buy dinner so i could just stay in the car. But i was SO WRONG. he parked his car and told ALL OF US to go out. i was like WAT THE TUT! hahhaa....but somehow i dont know where i got the courage from to wear like that to town with NO SLIPPERS ON. I WAS BAREFOOTED. im NEVER going to wear that in SINGAPORE HELL NO:) hhahahah

Till here,

LoTSa love,

NAdiah-

EMOtion StrikES~

2008-02-04T19:24:00.000-08:00

~ I DUn't Want to Lose The MooN tHats BEen RevolvINg Around The Preety SUn~

Ok, while im typing down this entry, im seriously very very down..i don't wish to write about this but somehow this blog of mine is just a place where i express all my thoughts and feelings and i have decided to write it down.

I met hun last night at the bridge and we had so much fun. We were crazy as per normal, we burst into laughter and as per usual, hun always mimicks me in whatever that i do. Especially when i said "NNNOOOO!" The motive of meeting hun was to talk about me going to Malaysia to study and i was just telling hun what could have happened. I know you are very confused and you are also remorse, but i just have got no choice but to let you know about this.

Situations started to change at 10pm when we both were very serious. No more laughter, no more jokes. I asked hun if he still would want to continue with the wonderful chemistry that we are having now..not giving me any specific answer, you said "i have a plan, and which..why not we don't meet or call or msg for one whole month and we see how it goes, untill i have confirm that im going to malaysia"

Now, that hurts just so bad. The reason why he is doing this was for my own good. He did not want me to be so hurt at the end of the day if ever i really do have to leave singapore..his trying to make me "get Prepared" so that when its confirm that im leaving singapore, i would not be so hurt to do so. Although i know deep down inside, eu do support me for this and i knw eu just cant bare to see me go. Now, that goes the same for me. eu aint alone hun~ However, i can still remember that eu said if ever im not going, do give you a call or msg eu n eu will be there for me. I will be waiting for that particular day to come. I WILL.

i know somehow, hun is doing this for my own sake but i just find that this really really sucks. I no longer can wish him Gdmorning, i no longer can hear his voice like i used to everyday, i no longer can see him mimicking me.:(.

I don't want this to happen but probably i just have to because i JUST HAVE TO.

The time when we had to leave last nyt. When you guided me through that lane to the roadside, i just felt like i don't want to let you go, i don't want to take the cab home and i don't want to see you go. Am i ever going to see you again? i do not know..i really do not know. Im just hoping for the best for us, for i still do have faith in this. Im not giving up. Im NOT, never, for you have always been the moon thats been revolving around the preety sun~

Im not going to put all this at waste, im not going to make this permanent. Just hang in there hun for its just temporary~ Im standing Strong and will keep eu close to my heart :)

* I'm Truly, Deeply GOing TO miss EU*

Lotsa love

Nadiah