!I CANT MAKE UP MY MIND!
Ok, you guys must have thought that i cant make up my mind whether to go to LAsalle or NAFa. Oh wells, i wish those were the two choices that i have to choose but somehow thats not whats hapening now. My mum wants to send me to a drama school in Malaysia and she is really very confident about it, and so does my sister, Sakina. Now, that make me think SO MUCH and i really don't know what i should do now. I seriously cried myself to sleep last night because i was really stress. Somethings are just holding me back if i have to go and study in Malaysia and stay there. :( Ok, i do see the fact that there are many more opportunities there for me as compared to Singapore. I may have a part already in the Media with Mediacorp here but somehow, everyone in my family is telling me that in Malaysia, there are thousands more chances..that made me think really hard ok. I was also stressed out because i just don't know how im going to leave all the people that i truly deeply love here. My Beloved Friends My close sweethearts..and especially Hun.. having to think of that gives me butterflies. SERIOUSLY. I just cant seemed to leave everything that i already have here in Singapore and having to build a whole new life there in Malaysia, i just find it ridiculous. I just wish that at this point of time, i can really make a gd choice. Everything now depends on ME ME ME. Its my Life and its all about my future..so what should i really do now? i just cant let time pass by like that? sometimes people say..in life you need to take sacrifices to be successful or even BIG sacrifices i must say. Im not ready to make up my mind, Im really not.
Anyway, today i also went to LAsalle open house and the school was way way awesome:) the building was like VIVO CITY kind of thing. Its really BIG AND NICE! really.. after going to Lasalle, we went to arab street again since it was near to bugis street and we met hun there. Lookig at ur stress face really makes me strees too and all worried. Hun was very very down too and so am i. I felt empty inside and we did not talk that much also..It was a bad day somehow for the both of us.. but im just glad that you apologised to me today and you craked a joke tome about ZUL the bus driver:) thanks darl. It made my day somehow or rather.Gees~.
Until now, im still a little down because everytime i think about this, i think of the people around me. Should i be sellfish or its about time that i do something good for myself?
"IM SO LOST NOW. I NEED AN ANGEL"
Lotsa Loves,
NAdiah