The only reason why i neglected my blog recently was because.. i did not had much time..
Anyway talking about time, now i feel so tight and worked up with many many things..Im sure you guys are aware that im working now at Eunos with the TATAMi Shop Singapore..right? somedays, i feel so so tired and even that i have to go to work. The fact that i have to handle my work and school and other things together makes me feel really worked up. In march, so many things will be in store for me, to the extend of i dunt know which one to choose..I have Mediacorp radio recording, I have Singing performance with my dearest ana at esplanade, i have an offer wuth the mastereign arts company which is just so fucking awesome. BUT, im so afraid if i take up all, i may end up killing myself. And will i even have time for my family as well as my dearest sweetheart, Rahman. Whatever i do now, theres just too many things to consider...things are not as direct as it used to be. I miss my life before where i can just say Ok to everything and i dunt have to worry bout anything..im more conscious of my surroundings now which i think is good but sumtyms it kindda stress me up too.. ..
ALL i wish to do now is, TO GO FOR HOLIDAY. Seriously, i really miss going for holidays..those younger days where i used to travel all around Malaysia, Indonesia, China, and Turkey with family.. Life had changed eversince my dad passed away...Its so different that i noticed the lack of communication in the family...I want to make a difference in this but i dunt know how. I want to make my mum the most happiest women in the world but perhaps not yet...Im still depending on her for school expenses..though im working, thats just to support my own expenses and bills. I want to be an independent woman..I want to succeed in life and be the best that i can be. I want to be successful in my Acting career and the Arts industry..Theres so many things that i want to do...i wish i can do it just with a click..PATIENCE AND HARDWORK thats what i need to do.
Sometimes, when i daydream, i wonder...after i graduate from Diploma in Theatre what am i going to do..how my life would be..Will i ever be successful? I HOPE i will..
anyway, many things have happened to me..Baby and i are doing great as per usual, though we do had some fights, we reconciled pretty fast...I see him in my future and im really hoping for the best. Iv gone through many ups n downs with him and i just hope that all these will lead up to a happy ending.MARRIAGE:) yes marriage. Thats what i hope for between us. I never knew i can be so in love with someone untill he came into my life.. His just like another part of me. I feel so sad if his sad. I feel so mad if his MAd. I feel so amazingly happy whenever he is. Our chemistry is so strong that i believe nothing can break us apart...Except, if its just really not meant to be. WE just hope. and i hope that my HOPE will turn out into reality sumday...perhaps in 6 or 7 years to come..:)
Today, mama had a call saying that my granny in melaka is very very sick. She was sent to the hospital with an oxygen support..and was sent to an emergency ward..btw, she is my Dad's mum. SO yeah my granny beside my father.
Come to think of it, Tmr is Valentines day and if anything goes wrong and if something were to happen to my grandma, this would be the second time i will tear on a good day like Valentines day.Two years back during 31st May 2007, my Dad passed away when everyone was happily enjoying their public holiday, Vesak Day. so i just hope that this will never have to happen again. If it does, i will have to come to melaka tmr right away and my baby will be left alone to celebrate V day. Perhaps i will make it up to him if anything were to happen..Now i hope again..that my granny will be fine soon.:(
Ciows for now..
I want to eat Pizza with so many cheeeese, im craving for one i swear:(
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO ALL:)
I LOVE MY BELOVED RAHMAN BABY:)
MWAHMWAH
loves,
nadiah