I was awaken by my mum's high pitched voice in the morning today...As early as even before the sun rises..She shouted " GRANDMA HAD PASSED AWAY!" I heard that and i could not even cry. Because..i was simply TOO SHOCKED. Sometimes i wonder, why is it that people around me and especially my loved ones dies shockingly.....are all of these fated or what? maybe yea but why...i always wonder....and the most unbelivable part was, while everyone was busy getting ready to go to malaysia to visit my grandma who is sleeping there peacefully, i just stood there and watched. I wasnt able to go to Malaysia as my passport was already due. I feel like a hopeless piece of black shit i swear. I wished i could fly there without being caught. In the first place, We cant even fly..:( This is the point of time whereby i hope miracles can happen.
I was very desperate.Desperate.desperate.
I cried weeks ago when i heard that my grandma was very sick...but we were told that she was recovering very well already and she was supposed to discharge TODAY. But, i guess it was her time to go....to the another world. World with a much better place and everything is just so good...I hope she goes to heaven, I will pray for her just like how i always do for my late father. Im happy that my grandma left because i believe that she can visit my father there...I know my granny misses my father so much and i knwo that my father misses his mum so much too...I hope and pray that both are placed in heaven...A beautiful land none can ever imagine..and tonite...i really wonder..tmr may even be my last day on earth...you can never predict. Seriously. Like my late father, who expects that he was going to go? NONE DID. He was a very healthy man...but because god loves him more, so he took him away from us..
Anyway, lets skip this. I don't want to end up having tears in my eyes.
.OK today was the First day of Musical college 56 training! It was quite fun. We laughed a lot as per usual..Aidil was laughing histaricly as always. HAHA. Me and syirah twinny was so funny. We both wanted to eat LONG JOHN. But im sorry dear i did note at with you...hehe next time ok dear:) anyway, today the "KALAU NAK STEP JAMBU BOLEH" girl was there too...i was so annoyed with her. We down there standing up and going through the exercise, SHe down there seating down with her handphone..and shes always with her phone..and the worst thing was her phone rang and she still have the cheek to talk for like one minute? But yea i think i understand...knowing where she came from, i guess i should be the smart one to understand and give in to her unacceptable attitude. HAHA.
Today after training i went to vivo City to meet my baby..He got a new job btw. At SENTOSA:) haaa. i guess he will start to be tann again! we went to eat long john. tell you guys somehting ok..
IM FUCKING IN LOVE WIH LONG JOHN CHEEEEEEEESEEEEEEEYYYYYYYY WEEESSSEEEEYY!!!!!!! I SWEAR I CAN EAT SO MUCH OF THOSE!!!! DAMN!!!!!:)
Ok till here.
PS: I dunt want to lose anyone again...not this time:(
Loves
Nadiah