Theres really so many things that i will be blogging about in this entry of mine today:) so please just tahan with me if it gets a little too long winded eh?:)
First of all, i would like to congratulate to all KOLEJ 56 Cast because we have made a great show and it was a success!:) i am truly deeply happy that we managed to pull this through despite facing alot of problems like handling "difficult people" as well as " difficult situation"
Some bitch around, others listen...some backstab and others follow..haiz..this is life i supposed eh?
Anyway, I would like to thank everyone whom have put all their hearts and effort in this Kolej 56 Musical. I have indeed learnt alot from each and evryone of you...some i learnt how bitchy or crazy or annoying or self proclaimed good you can be- this definitely mean only certain people:) but anyway, no doubt i will miss the irritatingNess that person can be knowing i wun see you again. HAHA. ok moving on, I would also like to thank abang hamzah and abang Afi for all the great work from them, the patience n faith they have in us. I swear, if it werent for them who had not given up on us, we wldnt be where we are now.
I am definitely going to miss some of them especially dearest Syirah, Syaiful, Ain, Aidil, Aida, Huda, uyun, abang afi and abang hamzah ofcuz.:) These are the people that actually made me want to come and look forward for training. If it werent especially for Syirah and Ain's sake, sometimes i feel that im really lazy to go especially when not many people there are putting thier 100 percent in the production.. Im going to write some thank you msg to Some people and let me start of with....
1) Nur Syirah...
" I watched you grow and i watched you fall, Iv seen your worst and iv seen your best..knowing you during our secondary school days was totally awesome..and when i get to know that i will be meeting you again for this KOLEJ 56 Production, god knows how happy and totally grateful i am to be able to see you again!:) YOu have always been the best and u know u are always MY BEST GIRLFRIEND, You always listen to me when i needed someone to be there for me.. u never fail to show concern n love towards me. I truly treated you like my sister, my twin my best buddy ever:) We laughed, we cry, we bitch,we have the same opinion and u agree to me n i agree to you..how can i ever find a person that almost have 80 percent the ssame name, same mum's name, same feelings and all with me? u are indeed truly my one in a million friend and i will definitely cherish you till the end of time dearest...I thank you for the times ur parents send me home and for the moments u made me laugh:) i will never forget the great times we had together and we will definitely be meeting again even after evrything has ended for kolej 56..this i PROMISE you love:) I always Love you...oh u know that darn well:) mwah!"
2) Nur Ain....
" when i first met you, i was saying this to myself...damn it she is super cute and i think if im a guy, i may have a crush on you..haha please ain, im not lesbian:) And so i strated knowing you...and i felt that ur not much of a difference of what i thought u were. U had a bf back then...haizad and u were so close n very manje to him and so i suspected, hell yeah she is manje..:) the first time when i saw u cry was during the dance class and i went to the toilet to comfort you...I did not know much what to say to you as im afraid u may not like it if i were to touch you..ur cry is even cute.:) did i tell u that? haha. Moving on and days passes by ur in my bitchy wawa team and im really very happy to be acting together with the most gorgeous girls ( u and Syirah) in the Kolej 56:) i was very very happy infact. You are a nice friend but sometimes i cant deny the fact that u can be annoying bitch with ur whiny little small voice:) BUT I ALWAYS LOVE YOU..iv always do since we started being close:) Ain, i know that ur in ur hardest and most difficult situation now..let me just tell you this. BE STRONG AND MOVE ON. Its not the end of the world and its not WORTH UR TEARS FOR HIM If he doesnt even care for you anymore ain...Open ur eyes and see the beautiful world. Its not only about him isnt it? There are many things in store for a young potential lady like you ain darling..So please, after reading this..i hope u realise that u worth MUCH MORE and dont bring urslef so down like that. Ur just SEVENTEEN for godsake:) much more things and people have yet to come in your way...:) u will never know. For now, i want you sister to work hard n do well in school. I LOVE U DEAREST:)"
3) AIDIL...
" haha aidil....aidil....when i first met you in the audition room, i was kinda irritated by you...i thought were like those MATREPS i can easily spot on down the street. But eversince i started knwoing you during this musical, U proved me so wrong. U have been one og my good friend in this musical and i never regretted knwoing you:) Working with you in the production was so much fun. We both laughed a lot together, u made me laugh and i always make u laugh too..:) When i got to know u will be Rosman and im Nitty Bonanza, i was like.."OHOH im acting with him now." i thought its gona be hard at first cuz im afraid i cannot connect myself to you but apparently u helped me out a lot aidil. In a way or rather i find myself not in a difficult situation to act together with you anymore:) So i really would like to thank you Aidil for evrything and it was so much fun working with you:) oh ya and i will never forget the "BELAKANG BELAKANG PELAJAR action me you and syirah always did to disturb someone. ( u know who)..haha:) so now that we will be taking a step further in TV, i wish u all thebest Aidil and make our friendship grow n always support each other ok!:)
PS: thank you for always asking me if Im ok or not whenever im sick:)"
4) Syaiful....
" I never knew we can be close in just a short time. You are one nice guy and also i must say Syirah is very fortunate and lucky to have a guy like you:) you both suits perfectly! Syaiful, Im always entertained by ur silly jokes and let me tell u ur laughter is indeed very contagious haha:) It was great knwoing u as a friend and im sorry if IV TAKEN SYIRAH AWAY FROM YOU HAHAHAHAHA!!!! no lah joking:) u are a talented guy and im proud n happy to be able to work together with you in this Musical...the laughters and secrets ME you n syirah had shared together will always be remembered. N its nice n great to know that ur a big fan of CHEESE n CHESSE burger like i do. HAHA. Thanks for evrything syaiful and oh ya did i tell u that ur hella one sensitive GUY IV EVER MET? hahha oh yes indeed u are man:) but thats NOt a bad thing though just that, dun cry too much that it will banjir my house ok?:) joking. So yeah...wishing u all the best and will see you again for KOolej 56 kembali lagi tv version!:)"
5) Abang Afi....
" you were just like a brother to me...u gave me hope, u gave me advice and u never fail to always me me happy. Ur a very sincere guy at heart and definitely one talented man too...i love ur voice and i think that u should start taking a step further about it abang afi:) Working with you in this Kolej 56 was fantastic! Abang fi, thank you so much for everything...for the care n concern u showed me...for the times when u sms me n told me to banyak baca doa when im really3 sick...for the times when i had problems n u were there to listen and gave me advice. Like when i first joined Kolej56....i had sum fights and u were there to support me abang i thank you very much...i had great moments with u and i shall always remember that...:)"
6) Abang HAmzah
" i know how much u hated me when u first saw me...u said i was very action and stuck up and that u felt that if i never get any role is also not ur problem...but eventually, ur opinion towards me changed and abang im glad that u had given me this chance to prove myself to you and evrryone else my capabilities being and actor. U gave me alot of advice and i treated u like a big brother too. U have never failed to always make me feel like u believed in me. U always listen to me when i faced problems here in kolej 56. U gave me strength and u have faith in me abang and i really must say that u have taught me a lot of things abang. I am trained in English theatre and when i came to Kolej 56 i learnt quite a lot of new things and abang, i must say that i never regretted coming and my experience with you was like a rollercoster...there were moments n times when i felt like quitting cuz i tot this is not going anywhere..but there u are msging me n telling me to have faith and that this will definitely work out! and abang, im very happy for you that this musical turned out to be a blast with many more offers to come...Im always looking forward to work with you abang:) I thank you very much once again n till we meet again ok!:)"
Ok its the end of the Thank you notes to sum of you which i feel that its more of need for me to write. To the names that i did not mention, that does not mean otherwise, i THANK YOU ALL VERY MUCH FOR EVERYTHING!:).
Adding on, Thanks to evryone who came to watch the show and my special thanks to HAFIZ, AJIB, NAD, SYAID,SHAM, ADLINA n BF n AZLIN n Fren, AIN, FAHmy who came to watch my show...The guys i mentioned above have always been with me since i was 14. knowing u guys was a great experience and i thank u all for ALWAYS SUPPORTING ME in my ARTS industry:) I LOVE U ALL:)
Two days ago was my ONE YEAR AND EIGHT MONTHS with my BELOVED ABDUL RAHMAN and i call him baby gonjeng which i dunt knwo why...i just find that name rather cute but yet disgusting but i loike it!..Loving him is the greatest gift god had ever given to me! and baby....i truly deeply love you so much...and i will never want to lose you sweetheart!:)
School resumes this TUESDAY and i must say that i cant wait for school but at the same time im also NOT READY FOR school looking at the heavy timetable that were given to us!:( oh ya i just want to share sum good news with all of you...im awarded the TAN CHE BENG SCHOLARSHIP AWARD by NAFA:) and im so glad n grateful:)
I was very sick for the past one week..cld not walk, cld not stand nor cld i even shower on my own. and my saviour was my MUM N SISTER TINIE:) without them, i dun think i can heal even till today...i have this sharp pain under my chest near the diaphragm area and its really2 very pain. Its been hell for me and i was bedridden for two days...my mum had to help me with everything...i truly thank her so much. At a moment, i thought i was going to die and was always very afraid that i may not be able to wake up the next morning but i thank you god for healing me and now im very happy that im a lot better!:)
Oh ya there are also other gd news: KOLEJ 56 will be on SURIA on 1ST NOVEMBER 2009 for hari raya HAJI TV FILM SHOW!:) we got an offer after MR SUHAIMI JAIS watched our show and said that he loved it a lot:) Looking forward to this n insyallah many more will come in for us:) it will be KOLEJ 56 KEMBALI LAGI e MUSICAL!:)
Yesterday, syirah ain, me n epul went to pastamania to eat...we were having so much fun until AIn Broke down to tears when the song " how do i live without you" was playing in the restaurant. what i did was just to comfort her cuz i know if i talk further, she will cry even more...After that we were talking about some sensitive issue about parents and how we feel if we lost them...and i told them how i felt when i lost my father...Syirah's eyes was already filled with tears. I know at that very moment she felt how i did. i did not want to cry untill i told them about my mum....how caring she was when she took care of me when i was so sick. That part, i cant endure anymore. I just had to cry. The guilt i have in me is too much to handle..i had to let it go...and i thank you guys for listening to me yesterday...I felt a lot better that u all felt the same way too:)
Ok i better get going now n do my homework...till here toodles:)
LOVES,
NADIAH:)